more of me in the Jungle at BoobCamp!

I did a while trailer thing too but Hector loved these shots and I’m assuming he’s using them because of that.

Im afraid to finish the book I’m reading. It’s a series and I don’t have the next one. I figured I’d be much more bed ridden than I am. Amazing how the body bounces back so fast. I’ve almost lost 20 pounds which makes me jump up and down and then have to sit for an hour to catch my breath. Yeah Yeah I’m adorable chubby but it’s not your decision-it’s mine and I’m sure you’ll love me all the same. I’ll always be curvy there is no way to fight that.

I’m probably a week away from actual working and fucking again. Already made plans and boy I can’t wait. Boys and girls ooh what fun! Screw Adult Friend Finder, they come to me I don’t have to look. I’m so lucky my fans are all so hot–and you are believe me. Can’t wait to taste some of you.

Those of you who haven’t used the ym address I have no idea why I haven’t heard from you cause you know I’m waiting…..

I knew giving out my yahoo address would do wonders for my recovery! You guys help me so much. It’s amazing, I don’t wake up in pain any more, I don’t have to worry about taking anything to get through the day. And best thing yet, I am listening to music again. So far thanks to a long lost friend I am able to fill my itunes with–oh of course-the Pixies, Interpol, Guided by Voices, Radio Head, The Cure, Air, Velvet Underground, The Clash and later I’m getting the rest if my CD’s to put into itunes so I can dance around and have fun!

One question? Does anyone have Paul Oakenfold-a good collection? Perfecto skips terribly and I need that one to exercise to. Also Digweed. Digweed is a weekness, I get so horny when I dance anyway, and Digweed does wonders! At his show, I left my very unhappy ex for my very happy new lover and fucked his brains out!

So thank you all for the messenger conversations. It’s been so fun getting to know you all. I should be back up and running around naked soon!

When I was under anesthesia I had this wild dream. I remembered this kid I used to know and I dreamed about him until they woke me up and forced me into reality! I hate reality with a passion sometimes! But here I am and here’s my story of the kid who sent me to heaven.

Each night I walked home to my apartment in Humbolt Park and a bunch of Puerto Ricans would be standing on the corner. I could smell the marijuana in the air and it smelled good to me. I’m not a big pot smoker but I love it during sex. So as to be expected, I was turned on. Panties wet, heat spreading up my body and my nipples hard. Thank goodness it was dark cause my face was flaming red.

One of them yelled “hey el bebé sale intento esto para un cambio” and he grabbed his crotch pulling upward while all his friends laughed. I knew what he meant and I didn’t at the same time. But he was gorgeous-something I never go for. He had a baseball hat facing the right way, a white wife beater, and jean shorts hanging off his ass. I turned around, I knew I was safe and said “you just lost your chance hombre, I might have invited you in!” and opened my apartment door without looking back.

A few hours later, the kid still in my mind, I was clean out of the shower. I had a deadline so masturbating to a gorgeous Hispanic was out of the question. I was reading up on Jamie Gillis who disgusted me and thrilled me at the same time. His ideas and theories of degradation were so fucked up but the nudity and things he got these people to do made me hot and I didn’t want to be hot for it. Fuckin’ Jamie Gillis!

I leaned back and took a break still in my robe. There was a knock on the door. Yeah it was him, with flowers. He took my bait. I’m not easy just very in tune with my needs and wants. I looked at him and then pulled his arm inside and closed the door pushing him against it and started kissing him. I could tell he was surprised but he eased into it and grabbed my face and kissed me harder. his hat fell off and even with matted hair he looked beautiful. He smiled at me and said “my name is Michael” his breath on my face was warm and spicy. I wanted to breath in his whole body. “Alix” I said and undid my robe letting it fall to the floor. He looked down and grabbed my ass lifted me up and turned me around so I was against the, door kissing me.

“The bedroom is over there” in between kisses I pointed. “No bed not yet” he breathed into my ear. It sent chills down my spine curling under my ass and heating up my cunt. I felt him hard on me. His pants just slipped off, “so that’s why you were them like that” he laughed at that and then pushed his hard cock inside me. My head went back against the door, but his hand caught it fast before I slammed it into the wood. So strong holding me up with one hand and cradling my head with the other. He continued to kiss my neck and shoulders trailing up to my mouth while he fucked me hard against the door. I felt weightless in his arms. He shook me up and squeezing my ass and occasionally slapping it. Each slap sent chills into my cunt making it drip down his legs. He did it more and more until we were both drenched and furiously fucking each other. He was so strong. It felt so good.

He moved me away from the door and tried to find my bed. I had to point to my room not letting go of his mouth. The spices were sweet but I didn’t know what they were. It just tasted good. He licked my lips and threw me on the bed, falling down on me and saying, “you taste like sugar baby, I can’t get enough” Then he shoved back into me and I came screaming. He winced and I could tell he was trying to say calm, as soon as he came he might have to leave.

“Can you come more than once?” I asked and he looked down at me and said “I hope so for you baby” His breath on my ear sent chills down my spine I shivered and shook untill I exploded again screaming and grabbing his ass driving him deeper inside. The waves were all over me flowing up and down over and over constantly. I was a long orgasm and when I was done he was still very still on top of me.

I picked up his face and kissed him softly and rolled him over. Our bodies were wet with cum and perspitation. It was the sexiest thing I’ve seen in a long time. We lay there for a while kissing and playing with our tongues. Holding hands and caressing eachother until he got hard enough to roll me on top. I grabbed his cock and pushed it into my wet sticky cunt and it hurt making me scream. He knew and grabbed me to him and slowly we rocked till I was wet again and we could fuck furiously once again.

Coming with Michael was amazing, he was so sensual. It was if he couldn’t stop touching every part of my body. He held my torso tight while I climaxed on top squeezing and thrusting making it more intense. I thought I wouldn’t stop. But I did and collapsed on him. He rolled me over and lay me flat on my stomach. Spread my legs with his thighs and stuck his dick in me. Oh but isn’t this my favorite, how did he know? It gives me enough leverage to fuck back which makes me come harder.

His lips were on my ear saying things in Spanish. I felt so good and I kept coming over and over. If the whole world ended I wouldn’t have cared. Buildings collapsing all around us, bombs going off, people screaming-nothing would stop me from coming and keeping him there until we were dead. Orgasms had to be the best way to die. He finally turned me over and said something in Spanish. I asked what he said and he answered, I want to come looking at and watching you. And I threw my head back as he drove into me again. I tried to look at him smiling, beautiful. I smiled back when I came again. He burrowed his face in my neck and then it snapped up and he kissed me hard, bruising my lips as he came into me.

I saw my Puerto Rican Michael a few more times that summer. He had a baby with another girl. I wasn’t jealous though. I loved him but I knew with a baby it wasn’t long term. So while his girl refused to fuck him over taking care of the baby I took up. It is possible to love two people at the same time. In the case of my Rican lover he had three to love. He had such a full heart bigger than any I’ve ever known. Not saying one bad word about his girl and we did talk about her. It was a nice summer and I miss him sometimes. But memories are still there. Sometimes when I masturbate I can feel him inside whispering Spanish into my ear.

PS: Spanish men make impassioned and hot-blooded lovers. I love you and miss you my amante machista! vuelto si usted quiere probarme otra vez!

this is the best pic I have seen of my debut Score. Look at it! It’s perfect. Each time I worked with him , only twice, was a treat. He’s why I’m in the business. When we did reverse cowgirl I was nervous! I hate having to move on a chair no less! But J-Mac’s thighs of steel gave me an excellent ride. you gotta go see it at Score! It’s amazing, I came like 12 times or something. Go count and tell me in comments!

Those of you who have my yahoo address, i want to commend you for being patient and looking out for my well being. I will answer again first come first serve so get your gears rolling. There were so many yesterday that i didnt get to talk to so try to get on early or wait and I’ll get to you i promise!

I HAVE NOTHING TO DO BUT THIS AND SLEEP–DONT THINK YOU ARE BOTHERING ME!

I met Javier last summer after I answered his add for models. When we first looked at each other I swore I saw a sparkle come from those deep brown ovals of his. I smiled my biggest smile, my truest smile, actually pleased and relieved he was honest. I do background checks on everyone I meet now at that time I was a bit reckless. He had a caring voice I thought, no way was he a maniac. Plus he had a website with impressive work throughout.

Always a gentleman, asking if I minded certain poses or actions for videos he never touched me. It was comfortable having an orgasm in front of him. All I saw was his camera lens, no perverted stare or reach to adjust his crotch.

We worked together twice and then he was gone. To Italy to teach photography. People who know another language impress me, men turn me on with that knowledge. I suppose it’s hypocritical because I don’t want to learn anything other than English. Thats a hard enough language as it is.

He came back recently. For one night. One night I was too busy to spend the time I wanted to with him. One night in a hotel somewhere amidst the many hotels and banks and mega companies on Michigan ave. Only one night.

It’s never enough time.

His work can be seen on his site. My pictures are mixed in with other girls that I hope aren’t the muse I want to be.

with drugs i can do a few hours on the computer, but without im useless. i have no idea how long it will take, ive never been this sick before. the docs say my case is the hardest to recover from and I may even have to go to physical therapy. All my energy is gone. i sweat just typing. but soon i will be back to my old self and look like these, thanks Andy I owe you.

Also make sure that you check comments lots of people put links in comments!

yep I am safe and sound. for those of you who have my yahoo address you can check to see if I’m online. I’m still really weak so don’t expect much ok.

and thank you Robert for pointing this out!

Well in a few days I am going to the doctor to find out why I’ve been getting sick a lot and what the fuck is up with my vagina! Yeah it’s embarrassing to talk about but I can’t have marathon sex anymore. I can only go once or twice and definitely not the next day. I found that out this weekend. I had problems a few months ago and shooting porn is too fast and only one at a time for it to hurt. But I still have a very capable and willing mouth.

If you read the last two posts then you might have an idea of what I did this weekend with and unnamed stranger/I just met you at AEE for two minutes. It’s true I didn’t even know what to call him-he has an alias like me. Player, stud, reckless human, he was everything I thought he would be and even what I hoped he wasn’t. But that’s life, and I grabbed his with both hands and sucked away that second night in both anger and utter delight. The other bitch can wait! You booked it and you better enjoy it! You’ll never find another mouth or pussy like mine. I’m real good and I know it.

The picture is from Clips.com. I’ll have to see about getting some from this weekend, I was dumb and forgot to take pictures. My position most of the time wouldn’t really let me and why stop a good thing just to get a shot? That was supposed to be set up later so I could try to get something good for the site which I never got the opportunity to do. But it was probably one of my better bj’s and I’m proud of it.

So my last weekend before I find out if I’m sick or not, was spend in utter bliss and blinding rage. I was alone most of the time without even an offer of dinner. Just a toy, another girl, another day…But he’s anonymous and will remain that way. I can still smell him on my hair and body. I have to make a trip to the Gap soon and pick up some cologne. Yeah I’m one of those annoying girls that thinks it’s cool to wear mens cologne–but only the fruity flowery ones that fill my nose with spring and summer mixed with chest hair and sex.

After Monday, that’s tomorrow! I will be posting a few days apart unless I can write enough to last at least 10 days. I have new pictures and might even be able to get a screen shot of my ass. After a year of nights and days, I was reunited with my favorite photographer/artist/videographer/and now I find out he’s a painter! Javier. We met at the Marriott where the white duvets and pillows were the perfect backdrop for some nice ass video taping and painting. I sat with my butt proudly in the air facing the skyline and the setting sun while he painted and videotaped away. If you had called me earlier baby I would have spent the weekend with you.

Summer’s going to be good. I’m not taking anything that happened in the past and count it as an omen of what’s to come. I will some how get that studio to work in and film away all the things I love about sex and naked bodies. Porn is my outlet and it is making me wet!

I stared at his legs, my body vibrating my mouth numb. He smelled good and the tops of his thighs were powerful but nice to my head. Hi penis was low and lightly pulsing, it was fascinating. I am always fascinated by the penis. I cherish everyone I have. Then I noticed my mouth was dry. The wine glass I sipped on earlier was behind me I grabbed it while sitting up. I was dizzy and his arms came up to steady me. His hands on my milky white skin reminded me to start tanning again. I love the way I look tan. He was golden probably from real sun. His hands were warm on my skin, I watched the veins pop out as he steadied me. I reached up and touched one lightly with my finger. He watched me puzzled.

He brought me out of my thoughts and we talked for a minute or two. It really didn’t matter about what. Little things about ourselves, thanks from him and a bit about my past blow jobs. But then again, I don’t remember when most of the conversations we had happened or what we talked about exactly.

I was topless and I could tell he wanted them within reach. I scooted forward closer and spilled wine on my nipple inviting him to clean me up. He did leaning from the chair first and then on his knees. He explored every inch of my breasts with his tongue and hands. Running wet fingers lightly over my nipples and connecting the various dots on my chest. He was slow and meticulous not wanting to leave the other alone as he sucked on her sister. I felt a few nibbles and tensed my back. As all men do, he mistook my movement and bit harder.

“No, no biting, nibbles are fine but not hard ok?” He didn’t even look up and nodded as he blew on the once bitten nipple to cool it off and make it harder. I will occasionally let men bite my nipples. Usually before we part, I ask them to do it hard so the soreness makes me remember them for a long while. When I feel the pain later I’ll get wet remembering how good it felt. Feeling that gives me tingles and shivers remaining from my climax earlier.

The most sensitive parts of my breasts are my nipples and the only place to get any reaction. Gentle and light caressing and swirling tongues send electric currents into my clit making my whole cunt seem to gape and drool. I can get very close to orgasm by the right touch and licks on the top of my nipples.

I spread my legs wide wishing I could spread them wider. Cunt aching I wrapped my legs around his torso seeking something hard to rub it on. He grabbed the crotch of my jeans, furrowing his brow; he attended to getting them off me quickly. My shoes were still on when I was free of all denim, and so was my underwear. He bent down and put his mouth over the soaked crotch of my white and panties; stuck his tongue out stiff as his cock and breathed hot air on my pussy through the fabric. I moaned and he started sucking on me through my underwear. His hands never left my nipples and my vagina got wetter and wetter.

He stood up, pulling a very dazed me up with him and kissed me hard on the mouth reaching down my back and squeezing my ass hard. The action made me moan into his mouth and wrap a leg around his legs only to fall back uncontrolled. I found my self back on the bed as my underwear was pulled from my body. I closed my eyes; my knees were lifted up and put on warm shoulders. A finger explored my wet lips and pushed gently on my clit creating a wave that ran to the top of my head and down again jerking my body and arching my back. He grabbed my ass under the arch and pulled me forward meeting his warm hungry mouth.

I had no control as his tongue ran circles around my lips and sucked my clit. He stuck fingers into my cunt and turned the already low moaning from me into a loud scream. My hands went to my nipples lightly caressing, circling and pulling a little. Their little shock waves caught up with the bigger ones his mouth was creating. Seeking him out, my head lifted and I looked down and our eyes locked making my whole pussy shiver and throb and I felt the come rush out as I went onto orgasmic heaven.

A slowly growing throb filled my core up my chest, into my neck to the top of my head. Lingering at the top making each hair lift and tingle, it came back down making my mouth get wide and my throat scream. My head was left thrashing with the orgasm running down my arms through my fingertips making them spread wide then clutching the blanket on the bed. It shot down my legs curling my toes and back up to my clit bursting out as I felt cum oozing out of me. I tried to pick myself up to see if he was ok but all I could see were colors spinning and my head fell back as I let the last of it seep out of my body. My cunt throbbed and I felt him lift up to watch. He came up over me and put his mouth on mine probing his tongue to find mine. I could taste my come on his tongue and his lips, sweet and hot like sweet butter, not much unlike his.

He kissed me while I was smiling eyes closed shivering and shimmering from the release. He kissed my neck licking and kissing until he found the spot that sent the ripples back down to my clit. I gasped with the small orgasm it caused wrapping my legs around him pressing him down harder on me. I could feel his cock again ready for me. Our bodies rolled on the bed happily making out. I licked his ears and kissed his neck, his cock getting harder and warmer against my cunt. His penis meshed and slipped on top of my wet pussy, still throbbing and open wide waiting for more. His hips moved faster as we kissed with growing need and desire. I kissed below his ear and he pushed into me hard making me shiver with left over cum. He pulled up and looked at me; yes I want you we both seemed to say while our bodies moved into position.

“Gentle, slow, easy, please,” I begged. His cock found my cunt and he eased his head into me. Sighs came out of me as I pulled away and he pushed back in a little farther causing a louder sigh. I pulled back feeling the wetness of my pussy all over his head and I pulled him into me and he passed my lips and shot right into my body. He moaned, I moaned louder. We rocked slowly trying to let the feeling of each other sink in. Our hips circling and pumping. I closed my eyes and tried to feel all of him inside me the walls of my vagina accepting him and welcoming him as they grew wet and tingled as he moved inside. Rocking and kissing, I was now hot and wet drenching his penis as it grew harder and moved faster. In and out in and out. The pace quickened and I no longer heard myself all I heard was my heart beating as I was filling with ecstasy.

He moved faster and faster his mouth on mine kissing me hard and tasting me with his tongue as I did the same. Bracing my feet on the bed, I was glad my heels were still on so I could get a better grip, I pushed up into him trying to match his thrusts with my own. His cock rubbed against my clit as it came out and probed into my g-spot as he went in. Matching his thrusts, I was getting close, I lifted up and squeezed his cock with my lips and then…..POP! My arms fell to the bed I pushed on him hard and my whole body shook as my head and arms thrashed. I could feel hot liquid pouring onto his dick as I came hard and long shaking it out and pushing it on. More and more bursts came as I kept going burying my head into his shoulder. I settled a little and still felt the orgasm reverberating in my cunt while he pumped and pumped.

My lips throbbed against his penis as it kept sliding in and out. For a moment I felt nothing like I was floating. I heard him moan and I came back into my body and knew why I momentarily left it. I was still coming or I stopped for a minute and came more. Either way I matched his pace again screaming and thrashing. The heels of my shoes dug into the bed as I pushed up and up coming harder and harder with each thrust. He started moaning louder and louder pressing his mouth into my hair. The with a loud yell he sat up pulled out of me and sprayed my chest and stomach with cum. My hands went to my clit pushing that last bit of orgasm out.

His liquid was warm and slippery to my touch as I spread it all over me. I licked my fingers and tasted the sweetness that came from inside of him. The sweet and tasty juice that I helped him make. He fell back on to me kissing me. My hands searched his hard, beautiful body, feeling every muscle tense and relax. He head went to the side and we smiled at each other. His eyes twinkled or maybe that was just the orgasm haze stuck in the air.

I knew if I wrapped my legs around his I could come again into his thigh. The clock said it was three and a half hours since I got there. There was plenty of time for that later.

This is a very long post, but you know me when I write erotica I write it long and in parts. So remember that as you read this. Its very much me right now and very personal, handle with care and Enjoy me!

Browsing the wine isle I wonder to myself should I even drink. Yes definitely. It’s only the second, wait third time seeing this guy and I need a buzz before I let him get in my pants. Shit shit shit! It’s been too long! Except for that one blow job a week ago, I’ve had no sex outside of jobs. I’ve made myself unavailable so it’s my fault and therefore the reason why I’m so nervous. I almost canceled but then I remember the way he looked at me in Vegas and I wanted more.

Pulling down a bottle of Clos Du Bois, Chardonnay I am satisfied and go to the front to pay. I like Pinot Grigio more but it has to be expensive. Chardonnay is easier to like in a mid to low price range like Clos Du Bois. At the counter, the cashiers eye’s my cleavage and tells it “somebody’s getting lucky tonight, hmmmm, mmm!” If he didn’t say it every time into my cleavage I would have thought him psychic.

I have a little time so I take the bus instead of a cab. I get off a little before the hotel and walk along the river on Wacker, my favorite walk in the city. Forget Millennium Park or the Magnificent Mile, I like the river and the way it winds through the city. It’s perfect at night when you can smell the air and it almost smells clean. Not quite. I think about stopping at a bar and downing three shots of vodka. Nah, haven’t done that in a few years, I don’t want to be out of control.

The rest of the walk to the hotel whizzes buy. I flick my cigarette and switch to gum. Inside the impressive main floor I look and find a washroom to pee and freshen up my makeup. I stare in the mirror. Assholes! I thought of the few people who had recently commented on my weight. If I wasn’t so nervous about my health and going to a out of state clinic for a procedure next week, I would be fine. I could care less about those anonymous dumb fucks thought! Although what hurt was one wasn’t so anonymous. I knew him well and he fucked up royally and probably will never hear from me again! But worrying about being sick and possibly not recovering for a month after they fix me made me a bowl of gelatin. Everyone that mattered said I was a beautiful red color and had a very sweet cherry taste. Yet, the few that took a spoonful and spat me out were the ones I thought of now.

This is just temporary, I thought to myself. Everything would be back to normal before I knew it. And the gorgeous guy upstairs was going to make me forget all about it for a couple days. Next I found myself in the elevators and heading to his room. He answered the door in a towel. “hi” I said. “Hey sexy” he said and took the bags from my hand then kissed me softly. We mingled our tongues together and suddenly I was glad I was nervous, I remembered how much wetter I get when I’m nervous. I could feel him grow hard and huge under the towel. I couldn’t wait for it. But then again, yes I could.

I convinced him to have a glass of wine first and talk so I could settle in. He started to open it and I ran into the bathroom quickly cleaning everything I could on myself without taking a shower. I checked every part of my body and made sure all was ready. Checked my shaved pussy making sure I didn’t miss any hairs for the 50th time today. Lastly, I checked my makeup and satisfied tried to walk back into the room with that attitude I’m known for.

Big revelation, I’m shy. Really! The girl who loves to get naked, flashes her tits on trains, sucks dick like it’s a lolli pop with gold in the center, and fucks because she likes to fuck. The woman who does porn movies so she can get fucked by the pros, is shy. Well not all the time but around people I’m just getting to know or the beautiful ones who make me nervous I’m a bit shy, yes. Talking with a glass of wine and preferably a cigarette gets me relaxed. But there is no smoking in this hotel. So I sip the wine and we talk.

Not much time goes buy when I find myself on my knees sucking his cock. It makes me wild when it gets warm then warmer and harder and harder in my clutches. I concentrate on the tip rolling my tongue around the ridge of the circumcised flesh and up the slope to the zenith lingering there, the tip of my tongue tasting. Then whoosh my mouth down and over it all past the hilt and as far as I can go without the deep throat. I’m not ready, I have to get use to my new toy and let my mouth be the judge of how far I go. His fingers are deep in my hair and I can feel his leg muscles tensing. A whoosh of wetness comes out of my pussy wetting my panties and making my clit throb. I mush my heel into my covered pussy and circle it around while I work on the cock trying not to get too excited. Yet, I notice my whole pussy: lips, clit and vagina all pulsing to the fast, growing beat of my heart.

He’s grabbing the neck of my shirt trying to get it off. I don’t know what he expects, I’m way too low. But I let him take it off me and pull my breasts out of my bra. Momentarily I sit up and let him feel them, lingering on nipples, fascinated by the size and loving the touch. I figure he’s had enough and go back to work on him. His dick smells like my spit now and it’s dried off a bit from the momentary break. I make sure it’s saturated by sucking it all the way onto my mouth and rubbing it against the back of my throat. Natural lubricants fill my mouth half from my throat and half from me drooling over the yummy cock.

Slowly I lick flicking my tongue from the apex down the sensitive vein, down to the base so firm and strong and I gather his baggage into my mouth trying to get both balls at once and not succeeding. I play with them in my mouth while stroking his cock. He takes over and I use my hands to caress the soft puckered skin that gets smoother and smoother as the balls grow, up, up, up towards the base. Almost hard as rocks now as a solitary finger slowly moves even lower leaving a trail of my sweet spit over a thin line that goes to a hole that is pulsing without rhythm. The uncontrollable pulsing swallows my finger that has wandered off on its own. I gently push the finger on the side of the opening and the pulsing gets more and more uniform and my finger slowly advances in without and effort from me at all. Safely inside I push on finger toward my thumb that is right in the middle of the shaft and the opening.

His balls are pulled up tight he’s still stoking his cock, but fast. I move up slowly and pull it into my mouth again this time sucking and sliding up and down at a fast hurried pace as I feel spasms with my finger and my thumb pushes up toward it trying gently to put them together. The pace is fast and I try to keep up I can almost feel the vein vibrate. I feel a pull from below, hear a whimper from above and then feel the release as the vein pumps against my tongue and cum rushes into my mouth. I hold it for a bit with both hands and my mouth squeezing the last drops out.

Tired but not spent I lay my head on his thigh and circle my arms around his waist and wait until he is ready to go after me.

My cat just scratched up my hand good! It looked like it was shredded at first. I forgot how much he fights when I try to pick him up to take him to the vet. I had to hide the cage from him and pretend that I was just doing some computer work right before I snatched him up. But he goes so fast shaking from side to side biting my hand claws extended out to the maximum digging and scratching my arm. He hissed and I dropped him. When he was safely under the bed I heard a low deep growl from him that warmed me to stay away.

See how the hand on the left is much more swollen, red and nicked with red dots than the hand on the right? It hurts!

Usually I try to trap him in the bathroom where there is no place for him to hide. I also need to wear gloves and three or four sweatshirts to protect my arms. His teeth and claws are sharp. He hates it when people try to pick him up. He’s terrified of something and it happened way back in his little kitty years when crack addicts were watching the house while my ex was away on business. They must have terrorized him. I’ve seen it before. Throwing the cat from person to person. Picking him up by his tail. Dumping water on him. Or just playing with him too rough, like he was a dog.

Again, you can also see that he ripped off a couple of nails. That hurts my wallet!

Well, Johnny B went up a notch and got two girls to be on his show. Good for him, it’s what he wanted and I think me being on last week helped him get those girls. His hits should go up. He did a little girls gone wild move and had them move to kiss each other then cut away right before. Don’t feel bad for me. I could never sit quietly next to him and “look pretty” every week. Plus, I think he’s taken it a bit far. No one will go to his show to listen to him now, they will go for the girls. If he stops now he will probably keep some viewers. But if he keeps going, what will happen when he can’t get any girls? I’m not going to save him. I need to be vocal and a little more important than he wants me to be.

I have to bow to Xavier. I am going to write to you I promise! I was really happy to see all your comments sticking up for me and making sure that you pointed out how much I meant to you and others who read this blog. That made me feel so good, I almost hopped on a plane.

In fact many of you commented on how much you loved me and that was so amazing! I’m so very lucky! I wish I had millions of dollars and I could fly you all here so we can have a huge party. That would be fantastic!

Now for some business: I’m still looking for a place. I am thinking on the options I have but I would really rather be alone. I would preform so much better because I wouldn’t have to concentrate on getting two people off at the same time. Plus, like I said before, it’s slightly embarrassing and I’m a bit shy. I need to have a bit of privacy.

I wont be able to start until the first or second week in June. I might have a place for June but I don’t know if it’s permanent. I need some people to call me. I will be out of town next week which is pretty much the end of the month, I’ll tell you about that trip later.

If you want to pool your money together and get me a place like some of you have commented about, I’m not going to complain. Chicago is expensive. The best was my last apartment which was $725 for 2-bedroom in a shitty neighborhood.

I would much rather just have a small studio to do it in or use someone’s house. Like I said the perks will be worth it and you would be a close personal friend of mine. Think about it.

Crap it’s Friday already! I majorly blew up at Bang yesterday in an email. Those of you who subscribe got it too.

Since I’m so tired and alarmed that it’s 8:30 on a Friday night, I think I’ll post the 90210/Bang Brothers satire I did in the newsletter the other day.
No one at Bang has called or emailed. Someone from New York did. Who was that? Call me back if you’re cute!

I made this up after my sweetie Henry said that Bang seems to be run like a frat house. I compared it to 90210. I think I did a pretty accurate portrayal of both and behind the scenes at 90210. Let me know what you think. Or add on if you want.

“Bang is run like a frat house”, my friend Henry said and he’s perfectly right. You would think that it would be a bit more professional from the look and shape of their offices in Miami. It’s all decked out right down to the barely dressed towel girl who brings the girls drinks and, well, towels. I don’t want a half naked 88 pound girl giving me Coke and Twinkies!

To me Bang was like the porn version of 90210. The premise: after the parents left to live in Hong Kong, the kids ran a porn business. Complete with Dylan drinking and snorting cocaine as the crazed director. Sitting on his chair swilling Old English as he occasionally fingers Kelly’s ass. Brenda the whiny receptionist trying to get Dylan off all the girls. She sits with pharmacy guides and plots Kelly’s death by overdose. Steve the pretentious stud who is their main dick for hire. The extremely pumped-up man who can’t come with a woman and has to jerk off in complete silence so he can think about John Travolta for 40 minutes. Contract girl number one, Kelly constantly stamping her foot because she never gets her way. Even when she tries to fuck for it. The ever uninformed Brandon, our CEO, who walks around with a glazed look in his eyes as he tries to hide his oxycotin addiction. He doesn’t know that everybody knows and he will find out too late. Contract Girl number two, Donna who, because she is saving herself for her husband she will only do G/G and anal, infuriating Kelly because Donna doesn’t know how to wash herself down there yet. Steve however likes the feeling off pumping into a dirty asshole. The slick driver is David, supplying the CEO with his Oxy, Dylan with his cocaine, Kelly with her crack, Steve with his Steroids, Brenda with her valuum and xanax, and Donna with toilet paper so she can stuff her bra.

In the middle of all of this, Gabrielle, as office manager constantly tries to keep everyone in order so they can get the job done. In her light blue pin-stripped overalls she is forced to wear every day are 6 bottles of Ridilan and a bottle of Dimitri Vodka-the only vodka she can afford.

Ok that was a little mean but that show was so stupid and I watched it every single Monday night. For those of you who missed it, I’m pretty on track with the characters, their personalities and habits. My favorite character was of course Dylan, we drank our Chivas and snorted lines together—yeah me and Dylan were quite the twosome and I was the top!

NICE ASS ALIX!

I took down the corporate email address for Bang because I don’t want to get yelled at. Kim was just doing her job, not very well, but we can’t fault her for that. I have a feeling she was a bit disturbed by what she was doing. I could tell she really liked pampering us, so maybe she should work in a spa, she would make so much more money.

However, I will be mass emailing it to my subscribers. I will also look at the site to see if I can get anything off that. Thursdays are the day’s when I think they update. But it is weird, Samantha’s went up one right after the other.

You know I complain about my weight too much. I did that before when I weighed this much. But I was still the girl at the bar who got the most attention so I don’t know what I’m whining about. I’m beautiful!

Oh man that you tube fiasco really wasted my time. I hate arguing with little girls who I shock. If I shock them wait till their boyfriend fucks them up the ass, spanks them hard and calls them a bitch whore.

Working with that Johnny guy was fun and he did get a lot of hits with my boobs and advertising. But I’m kind of good at that. If someone wants some traffic from me I tell them to add my site a picture and write something nice and I will tell everyone to go there. But I never would require you to go back! You’re all mine and I don’t want to share you with anyone. Nope! And I don’t want to know if I am so keep me in the dark cause I fuck other guys too.

Anyway back to life. I sent out my newsletter and have barely heard anything back. I thought the picture I sent out was a good one. I was going to call it “couldn’t wait to get my clothes off.” I took a bunch of those today in various parts of the room. This is probably the picture I should have sent instead without the crop.

When I was done I put my hair up and white underwear on and thought a few pictures that way would be great. Like this:

I stopped taking the meds that made me gain weight but only just recently. However, my boobs are huge, my tummy is adorable and my ass is amazing! So I’m OK for now but I still want to work out and loose weight. I want to be stronger and be able to fuck harder. Those are both positive things especially the latter.

I want to tell you guys that I really appreciate you going to the you tube site and watching me on that show. That one girl was right I did look a little vapid. Most of the time Johnny kept flubbing his lines and by the time we took the final shot I had been smiling so long that my eyes glazed over from not blinking (Russ Meyer thing). Plus I knew what he was going to say and I almost mouthed along with him. I don’t know if I will be joining him next week. He wants two girls now. I can think of a few but they don’t live here in Chicago. That’s why I’m moving to LA. I want to be close to April Flores and Bunny.

Speaking of Bunny, I think I am going to have to call Bang Brothers and ask them when they are going to play the scene with Bunny, me and Jack-off. I had someone tell me today that they got the BTRA site just to see me and he wasted his money cause I was never on. It is my first girl girl! Dammit. If you belong to the site write in. That’s the only thing I can say because they really don’t tell me anything. Tomorrow I’ll see if I can get a corporate address.