knzn, I thought that was keynesian! When I said the letters out loud I thought hey that sounds a little like Keynesian-a type of economic thought! Are you kidding!! I am such a lier! I had no idea and I didn’t know what it meant until you told me. It sounds interesting. Like I said, I respect numbers and math now. I think it is from using excel and trying to memorize formulas. I had to understand them before I could remember them. I was successful with a few, most notably, the V-lookup which is probably not used now. I even had the V-Lookup at home trying to set up pricing and URLs for my designs.

I think the “Sex Worker” debate is dwindling but I’d like to keep it up for a little bit longer. One more post after this one with a post in between should do it. I promised a boob shot and a ass shot to swanky-c so I will be posting one tonight. I am also taking some pics tomorrow with my favorite editor of all films and videos! They will go up tomorrow night. Don’t fret my sweets, I still love to get naked!

Sex workers in the middle east have it bad I agree but Sex Workers are embraced in much of Europe. They are spit on as the lowest low here. I remember once reading about how much fans actually hated their objects of desire. It was when that young porn starlet Zoey Zane (Emily Sander)died last year. The boards were saturated with posts about her mostly insults and verbal abuse. There was speculation on how she died and why she died. Every one said she died because she was a porn star and maybe an escort. But it was really just being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I don’t think it had anything to do with her career. Someone killed her and they did it because they were fucked up. In the end that’s all it was. Her parents may have been upset about her choice to become a sex worker, but in the end they’d rather she did that then be dead.

The same thing happened with the girl I posted about yesterday. I wish people would stop conjuring up these stories about people they don’t know just so they can feel better about themselves! That’s what it is in the end. I know because I used to do it. It was never about understanding it was always about me being glad I wasn’t them.

As for the murdered porn star, the fact that some of her fans became haters is something I have to remember every day. No matter how much they loved that girl when she was alive and naked getting fucked on video from johnny big dick, as soon as she was dead they turned on her. I never question why anymore, I just remember it. Sex workers are never safe.

Safety is a big reason why we have come together and called ourselves by the name “Sex Workers”. It gives us a safe haven and people to talk to. It’s a community where we all love each other, look out for one another and don’t judge our fellow sex workers even if we disagree with them. We are united under this title. And I for one feel a little bit better knowing that.

Bleeeeech! This makes me sick!

When are people going to realize that Trump is nuts and has dementia? Besides VH1 already did this show called Charm School with that Monique woman.

Then there is this shit! I can’t believe this blog exists…well yes I can. It just amazes me that people have time to judge this kid. They make up her life story in those comments. Why don’t they spend their time judging Donald Trump? At least we know what he does and know about his life. I’m not for judging people but I know it happens and I can’t stop it so I prefer they judge people who ask for it like Trump. He makes a fool out of himself, yet he will say he is better than anyone since he makes so much money. The reason why is because he has so much money already. He can just ask for what he wants and corporations give it to him. As stupid as that show is it will probably make him money. He will find the hottest most fucked up girls to entertain us.

I was reading about Kristen and a lot of women feel sorry for her and feel she is going to be exploited. But look at our history, all the women caught in this type of act, seem to get a lot of money. I am not worried about her at all. I think she is being exploited but if she takes the Trump job then she is asking for it.

Venus Cassandra and knzn, I would love to continue our debate but only for the next couple of posts. I need to get back to sex soon.

I happen to agree with both Venus Cassandra and knzn (I’d like to know what that stands for, I seem to be growing very fond of math and people who can manipulate numbers). Plus I’m a terrible debater. I don’t debate because I can agree with different parts of different views and opinions. Sexlemming is right about me, the porn world may crush me after all.

First to knzn, you broached a topic that many people are going to slam you down for. Plus you tried to lighten it with humor and no advocate of sex worker rights is going to giggle. I wouldn’t apologize for putting your foot in your mouth, you wrote the post, defend it and make us see why you said what you said.

The people who oppose you are smart, very smart and the terms sex work and sex worker became what they are after much scrutiny. Your comments from s. lee seem to say it best, it creates a community and an umbrella including all who have an expertise in sex. Having a community is very important in human survival.

I identify as a sex worker only because the term is there for me to use. I would prefer adult industry professional but that doesn’t include prostitutes, escorts and call girls. Yet it seems that most of them cross over into the adult industry by performing, writing a book or blog, or running a website. Therefor, sex work and worker is perfect for the people it describes and in no way do I feel demeaned or insulted by it. Sex, I guess, is an uncomfortable word for many people. 15 years ago I might have been uncomfortable with it.

As for civil order, I happen to agree with you. Except for your statement on how the police indirectly give prostitutes a reasonable peaceful environment. Prostitutes are raped and murdered every day. It’s not very peaceful for them and why many get pimps or go to an agency that takes much of their earnings. Police tend to ignore a girls human rights if she is caught selling her body. So their efforts to get drugs and gangs off the street are lost on them. Prostitutes are still considered scum by people who are afraid of sex and that is a lot of people.

I do prefer to obey the law. So far I have rejected the weekly offers to become an escort. It’s mainly because I don’t want to go to jail, but part of it has to do with the type of sex prostitutes have. I don’t have to give my costar the best night of his life, I just have to perform and act like it is. I am also afraid of getting hurt. Even though the safer route is to go with an agency many of them don’t do background checks like they promise. This leaves the girl in a bad situation. She has no where to turn to complain about their breech of contract.

Heroism? I would argue that the real hero’s in prostitute land are the ones who get involved and fight for their rights while helping other women who are in trouble. Pursuing you dreams is mostly about the money you can make. I find it hard to believe that anyone would dream of becoming a prostitute except for those who need an outlet. My dream is to become an erotic writer and in pursuit of that dream I went into the porn business to gather the information I need. Plus, I like sex and there is nothing wrong or illegal about that with that.

One of the blogs I have bookmarked but I don’t read all the time is Seskuality. The reason why I don’t read it is because it has the feeling of the sex elite. The blogs that are about sexuality, sex work, current events and so on. It is a purposeful blog where mine is more frivolous and campy. I wouldn’t be surprised if Seska had a PHD in something big and important.

Despite all the above, I do occasionally read the blog. Especially when Seska talks about things I am interested in such as the Eliot Spitzer scandal. They keep arresting girls who he hired for sex taking down their host companies. Seska’s blog was just a short layover before my final destination Bound not Gagged. BnG is a blog by and about sex workers. There are 16 regular contributors as well as many more contributors that write when they have something to say or promote.

The one thing the media has always done to prostitutes is write them off to being in an illegal business and having no other qualities except the ability to have sex with many men a day. With Spitzers $4000 an hour girl, the media actually gave her some screen time and announced that she was a model and singer. Her song was broadcast on radio talk shows and it wasn’t bad.

Now there is a new girl and no info has been released about her yet. She’s a hot blond and that’s all I know right now. I am not sure if she will make headlines like Kristen did. It seems that the excitement over this has fled and found something else to gasp over.

BnG’s post here talks about terminology and references this blog post as annoying and unfunny. I found it to be another case of a man who is uncomfortable with his own sexuality that he has to kick others, in this case sex workers, in the stomach. It’s not life threatening but it hurts enough to do lasting physical and mental harm.

I admit these men scare me. Not because they are physically threatening, because they are part of a mass of people who don’t know that they are really telling the world they are not knowledgeable about sexuality. Not having a grasp on your own sexuality, I believe, is very threatening to those who do. It is evident here in his post as he attacks the terminology of sex worker. As a sex worker, I am insulted but at the same time I feel sorry for this man. It is apparent that the majority of people who read this post were the people he was insulting. Yet he probably takes away nothing from their comments because he still has sex in the dark.

Scared is probably not the correct word. But I worry about the future of sex workers and womens rights. Taking away the rights of sex workers only makes it harder for women. It is one step closer to outlawing the right to choose. I choose my profession and I am not ashamed. If that right is taken away from me then I will have to work even harder to remain sane. It’s not healthy. We will be right beck to the Victorian age where womens’ vagina’s were sewn up when their husbands went away. A time when women who acted out had their uterus’ removed. A time when women like me who embraced their sexuality and enjoyed orgasms were put in an asylum to rot. So scared IS the appropriate word.

If you are fairly new to this blog, you probably missed the post about me being the victim of identity theft. Here it is again.

At 1pm when I was about to sit down and write a post, I got a call from a collection agency. Normally I wouldn’t answer but since I am all caught up I figured I needed to know if I missed something. The collection agency was calling on behalf of the phone company that called me last year to tell me I had been a victim of identity theft. I owe something like $500. I told the lady my situation. The woman at the collection agency said that the company would not have called me and to be honest I always thought that her call was weird anyway. So I had to repeat everything over again–filing a police report which brought me a very cute officer in uniform, filing a fraud alert with the credit companies, contacting the FTC and Social Security.

On the phone with the collection agent, I was able to find out the address that the phone bills were being sent. Honestly, I don’t think it’s a real address or no one lives there anymore. Since the phone is turned off now, I’m sure the culprits are long gone. I called the phone company and they told me that I had done what I was supposed to do and that it should work itself out. Excuse me but I did all this in October and nothing was resolved then! It really sucks.

I feel violated just as I felt violated when I was robbed many years ago. My landlords family was here from Poland and they kept going to the wrong door, his door was on the north side and ours was on the south side. I would have said they just made a mistake but when the same kids came around three and four times I knew that they were doing something.

They came in the back door using the landlord’s key an stole my heirloom jewelry from my Greek grandma, my pearls and amethyst bracelets. They also took a half used bottle of coco, some clothes and a bed sheet. It was like they were Christmas shopping. The landlord blamed us saying they stole a bunch of his clothes. There is no way because he had really weird clothes. The cops believed our story despite our landlord saying no way. But there was really nothing they could do. Why do we call the police anymore? The jewelry was appraised but we hadn’t insured it yet. Luckily I have nothing that valuable anymore except the ring and necklace I always wear.

I felt weird then too. My apartment looked strange to me, darker like I was in a movie. They stole nothing from my roommate. Thank goodness they didn’t take the tv but it was kinda crappy. So was the stereo. We had so many parties there. It was the apartment I partied the most in. Since we had all the parties the neighbors hated us. Of course the landlord made up a story of our friends steeling the keys, copying them and then robbing us. There is no way, we didn’t even have dups made. But what they stole was priceless, it was all I had from my grandmother.

I’m sure this happens to lots of people and I can’t imagine what they go through. It’s really hard to trust people after that.

Wow! I got so many comments lauding me for the pictures from the Ponante interview. I wish I was more computer literate so I could have recorded the interview. But I’m not and those are from Gram not me. Bummer! I do promise to come up with something in the coming weeks. I know you are disappointed, so am I. I looked for a way to record it but it was AOL and I am not familiar with them. I’ll ask Gram what he knows.

Gram Ponante is a dreamy interview. He is very unique and attractive. When I met him at AVN he towered over me even while I was in 4 inch heels. He held my hand and led me to the important people, the ones I needed to meet. I had butterflies in my stomach holding his hand and following him around. You know how I feel about writers. We ended up with April Flores and Carlos Batts. I miss April, I need to write to her. She taught me how to be yourself and love your body no matter what shape it is in. A little wisdom from her will go a long way with me. It was only a year ago that I went to LA and spent time with them. Carlos is a genius with the camera and he now works for Adam and Eve. April is selling her videos through them. The pair of them are two halves of a greater whole that spews forth visionary wisdom. I’m glad Gram and I both agree that they are influential in this business.

Wow the emails keep coming! I love it you guys, I am trying to keep up. I actually do feel better about everything and I am going to do another photo shoot very soon. I think I’m going to run up north, take some pictures and have a roll with a particularly hot photographer up there. Yes that means you! Can’t wait to get his svelte body in between my legs. Oh just thinking about it makes me purr….

Yesterday was an hour of cardio, today it’s 90 minutes of cardio and 30 on the weight machines. I wish I could go topless there, but I don’t think the trainers will appreciate their trainees being distracted. Then again, I always flirt with the male trainers. It’s amazing how wrong the media is when it comes to telling us what is hot to the opposite sex and what is not. I don’t think it really has much to do with my body. It has to do mostly with my mind, attitude and appearance. My best friend and I are about the same weight and we usually have the most attention at bars and parties. We are assertive and flirtatious. We command attention and we get it. We blew the little skinny things away!

It’s such a weird thing the weight issue. I am pretty normal as far as American women go. I have the Black and Hispanic vote thanks to my ample bosom and round ass. I also have a large amount of white guys who want to get lost in my chest and pussy. It’s not so bad to be a girl who is a bit overweight. But I will tell you that the American Medical association calls anyone who is 30 pounds over the recommended weight (a number created by the AMA) obese. t is a motivation killer when a highly celebrated association tells you that you are obese. I am certainly not obese! Fuck the AMA I always say.

Yes I’m good now, I needed the ego boost your emails and comments have provided. You helped me realize that I look really good no matter what and that I am a great writer and full of ideas. Oh and lets not forget artistic. I rule in Arts and Crafts!

This is a picture from my photographer up north. The way I look here is my goal for my diet.

He says he is a much better photographer but I can’t imagine better than this!

I interviewed Gram Ponante today. I was topless and he posted some pictures. Go check it out on his site. Now I can say there are current pictures of me. Yes my boobs are bigger, the only plus about gaining weight for me.

http://www.gramponante.com/2008/03/no-easter-for-alix-lakehurst.html

I loved interviewing him because he is where I want to be someday. He teaches me something new every time we exchange emails or talk. He doesn’t sit me down and say “take notes”. But he never repeats himself (something we all do no matter how old we are) and he is full of stories and things I didn’t know before.

In other news, the snowstorm we had today easily left us with 10 inches of snow. It’s all new and all happened in a ten hour period. good for skiing if you like to ski. I just want Spring to start on time at least once in my lifetime!

It’s going to take me a week or two to get back to the webcam. I had a lot of different options of what I wanted to do for money and the easiest and most fun would be the webcam. This winter really sucked for my motivation and self esteem. Writing is almost at a stand still. I have no new pictures to post so I have to try and be creative with what I have. And I lack all talent at fulfillment of my dvd.

I think most girls would have given up by now by acquiring a job at Starbucks or some retail outfit. However if I did that I would get promoted too quickly. I thought about working in retail part-time. I have way too much experience not to lead. I would become an assistant manager just because I show up to work. So no thank you I will just struggle.

As far as I can tell I will be back on camera in the beginning of April. It should be good this time and regular. I’m not doing mainstream movies (I actually turned down a $1000 a day offer from a company I heard many bad things about) so the motivation to make money is stronger than ever.

I might make another video in the beginning of April too. Hopefully I can video tape rolling around in bed with my California hottie. What do you say baby? Can we record our fuck fest?

As usual, I’m very ashamed and very scared of my own country. This election is getting ugly and I’m really nervous about the next four years and who will be in office during them. I don’t know who to vote for. I used to know but now I’m not fond of anyone. We are on the verge of having the first black or woman president which should be an exciting time and a relief to most since it is long overdue. Instead of embracing each other and trying to work against the GOP the two candidates are spending all their energy calling each other names. I hate to say this but my girl is not living up to the feminist, supportive and strong leader I thought she was. It seems as if her campaign is all about making us afraid to vote for Obama, before for his not being ready and now for his entire race not being ready. Has anyone heard if Hilary condemned those statements? If she doesn’t, Obama will have to do or say something pretty terrible to get me back on that womans side. I just don’t like mudslinging and right now it seems as if Hilary’s side is doing most of it.

Then I think of this Spitzer bullshit and think of how Clinton got away with the same thing over and over. Clinton did it in the oval office while Spitzer had the decency to opt for a hotel room. We can’t deface the flag but Clinton can jizz on the White House carpet? Both men deserved much more punishment than what they suffered. Not so much for having extramarital affairs but for being so stupid and not more careful about getting caught. What were they thinking? Both used methods that were akin to hiding in plane sight.

I knew I wanted to move to Europe for a good reason.

I rarely get political but I have been reading and watching a lot of news. Election time is very exciting and I wanted to hear what the candidates have planned. Instead I get gossip. To me it’s sad.

Ah forget the president, punch my ticket!

I’ve had writers block for the last couple of days. Figuring out what to write usually comes easy. What’s easier than sex to write about? Unless you have a hang up, usually sex is very easy because it gives physical pleasure while writing it. Physical pleasure is a great motivator. But lately I haven’t been able to get motivated.

A friend just contacted me and said he was coming up next month and wants to get together. This means I will be doing one of my favorite things: spending the weekend in bed. So I’m really turned on an excited.

Still nothing.

I guess I’ll just writes some news.

The DVD…I know some are still waiting. I found an editor and he made the DVD both cleaner and able to play on most DVD players. Originally I thought the DVD was a bit choppy and I really didn’t know what to do. I am not familiar with the software to edit the DVD nor was I familiar with the actual DVD maker. I feel like an ass because it’s been over a month since they should have gone out. With the third DVD which is already in production I will not promise it until I am ready to send it. I’m so sorry to those of you who have been waiting. I am going over the final product on Monday and will probably get many out on Tuesday and Wednesday.

Remember these come with cards which are actually Zines. They are cards that have stories or interviews included. It takes four hours to complete one fully and I want to make one for each of you. I have made six so far and that took 2 weeks since I needed to work as well. I didn’t sell too many DVD’s but I’m glad people are still asking about them. Please contact me if you want one: alix@wecouldbenaked.com. But be patient with me. I am busier than I was last year at this time and last year I was about to go to LA to visit Christy again. Now I am answering so many more emails, writing all the time, reading all the time and learning how to use various computer components that will help me during the summer when I start to record my own videos again. Traveling is much more fun but I need the money to travel so I have to get this stuff ready so I can make that money.

I wish I could make big money selling the DVD and cards or blankets which I love to make. Selling these things is difficult. I will be starting the webcam again soon. This time I am really going to try hard to stick to a schedule and discipline myself to get on every day. I will update you with the exact date that I will be available. When I do please come and visit me. If you haven’t signed up with ImLive please use my link so I can get that credit and money for your sign-up.

I really appreciate the emails. remember I try to write back to everyone so if I haven’t gotten back to you and it’s been over a month write again.

Now for today’s picture and I think I will stick to Benders suggestion and go with Anal Sundays. Enjoy me!

I met the Black Bachelor a year ago. Obviously, I’m not divorced but my last relationship lasted around six years and the one before that was nine, so it’s safe to say that I was kinda married twice. I still love guy two and we are close but I have changed so much since we were together. I needed him to change as well but he didn’t so until he does…neither of us will want to be together. All I can say is that I’m glad I fell deeply in love more than once. It’s really great when you realize it even if the relationship wasn’t that great.

Wow I didn’t mean to write this. I just wanted to show you the Black Bachelor pics so here you go:

To see more go to The Black Bachelor.

I woke up this morning and re-read this post from Gram the man about his run in with Kurt Lockwood. I read it twice because it is good enough to read twice. I even commented. The post is a look into the world of porn and it’s almost educational to the reader. I recommend reading it if you haven’t. Most of you are Gram fans which is cool because that means you are rubbing off on me too.

Mike South’s comment made me wet. There is nothing like a guy who uses the word douche. A quick jump into goggle and I was on the Mike South site reading about the porn industry through his eyes. He’s smart which is very attractive to me and he writes well. I am adding him to my daily reads like Gram Ponante. Mike South talks about another blogger called Goddess quite a bit so I found one of her sites about police men. Like Goddess, I too am very attracted to policemen and firemen. Men in uniforms make me purr.

Finally, this was sent to me by a sexy Texan and it’s LMAO material. (I’m not good with chat language. I’m sure someone will write a book on how to properly use it.)

Keep your eyes out for that Bang Brothers video. It should be out soon. I want to make sure they use it.

If you are all good boys and pay attention to my site you will notice that I have added a sidebar menu with links to all my new web appearances. It includes the Gram Ponante interview, the Score pages, blog tributes and best of all I’m naked in all of them! If I have missed any please email me the overlooked site.

I have a boon to ask any of you film/computer experts. A little while ago I taped myself giving one of my costars a very amazing blowjob. There was a little strip tease intro and some banter between us but the POV BJ is probably the best one I can remember because it was just us and we were really doing it to have fun. There was no time limit, no director making sure my boobs were always visible.

on a side note that is difficult, especially if the camera is doing a POV shot. Somehow I am supposed to stretch my boobs so that they can be seen on either side of the cock I was feasting on. Or if I was on my knees I had to hold them up so that there was an illusion that I was so turned on making my boobs float! The director constantly saying I can’t see your tits or move them a little more to the right…I know it hurts honey but it looks awesome! It was pretty impossible some times.

The footage is around 60 minutes I think maybe less. I remember giving such a long blowjob made me want to just go to bed and have him rub my back. Sometimes getting jizz all over your tits makes you want to stop working so hard and just grab the vibrator.

My biggest problem is that the camera will not let me transfer any of the footage to my computer. It’s a borrowed camera that was used at many of my friends art shows and band shows. Needless to say it was dropped a lot. Somewhere in the footage of the band I am topless in roller skates on stage at the Double Door in Chicago. They love me there!

I need someone to transfer this miniDV footage to a DVD-R or something so I can edit it and sell it to the blow job lovers. One I have in mind especially for this and I really want to get it to him. He is a special fan and I hope he knows who he is. He wrote me me a few months ago asking for BJ scenes only and I really like to suck cock so I have plenty for him and this one is the cherry on the top of my creamy tits.

Whoever helps me of course can keep the footage for themselves and will get my new video unless you already have it. If so I will think of something.

So please help me! I am going to the post office every day and I would be really happy to send this off too.

My hero Gram Ponante just posted my interview from the AVN show. There are tons of pictures from both the backstage area where we stole away to and some screen caps from my video collection.

Please read it and give me your trusted comments. Make sure the haters get there last and and wish they were never born.

This also proves that the video can be watched. Gram had to switch the aspect ratio to 4:3 on his computer. He says its standard for most DVD players is 16:9 widescreen.

I’m sending more out tomorrow, Thursday and Friday. I’m pretty sure yours will be in there. Email me at alix@wecouldbenaked.com to be sure. You know I love hearing from you. And as a reminder, if I have not returned your first email please send another. Remember I get around 50 to 100 emails a day and it is really easy for me to miss your email despite me not wanting to. Your emails are my favorite things!

Before I delve into my naked links I would like to inform you about my feedblitz account. I got this message today:

“403 Forbidden” has changed…Please visit the page to see the changes. To see individual posts or entries the URL given to FeedBlitz will need to be changed – please contact FeedBlitz support or the blog’s owner for help.

I’m not sure what that means, but shortly after I received a cancellation with the reason “ISP requested removal”

The only thing I can guess is that Feedblitz doesn’t like the content of my blog. If any of you know what this means contact me and let me know what to do. Meanwhile I will ignore the requests to delete people unless you email me personally. If you would please sign up using the WordPress to subscribe to the newsletter (the one I have been neglecting—but not for long, I promise.

Now for the links! Thanks to Chaw my good friend and object of my affections, I have many places for you to see what I have been up to at Score!

Joggs.com
Pornhater
Lanasbigboobs (she has my birthday way off, I am not that old!)
Gamelink

and the review of Big Breasted Amateurs

Enjoy!

Oh and lets not for get…

Insertion Saturday

Anal Sunday