My debut in Voluptuous was a success so much so that they called me back to do some more boy girl videos in Miami next week. I know I postponed the Bangbros and Reality Kings shoots until next year but that was because I am not comfortable with them and I wanted to prepare. I know what to expect with Score. It will be great going to hot weather next week! I can’t wait!

I hope to have the pictures for the breast files site done by Monday. It’s iffy because I still have about 200 pictures to go through. That’s 2000 zit’s to zap! Proactive has helped but I also use Retin-A and now Eurythromyacin gel (shit did I spell that right? The tube is at home and I’m not). Adult acne is always going to be a problem I expect to be in my 30’s and 40’s even 50’s with acne! Damn! Sometimes being depicted as a hose beast feels pretty close to home.

I want to open my pay site at the beginning of the year. It might be in February or at the end of February around my birthday. That’s February 25th in case you need to put it in your calendars. My birthstone is amethyst but my favorite is dark blue sapphire, like my ring that I wear in every picture, I never take it off. Tulips, But a nice e-card will do too.

I’m getting very daring when it comes to the public flashing. Yesterday I had my tits out for a bit longer than just a flash on the train. There were only a few people on but now that the word is out and conductors ask me if I’m “that girl” I am getting a bit confident and yesterday I almost went a bit overboard.

I want to protect the conductors by saying that they do not know that I do this. They are all very nice to me and I don’t want any of them getting in trouble. I also don’t do this in a car with any children. Im not stupid. I’m crazy but not stupid. Enjoy…

I want to thank Buzz for doing this picture of me. It is awesome!

Someone left a comment when I submitted the HP Lovecraft picture of me as a hose-beast for Halloween saying that it was odd that I was so flattered and excited about being depicted as the creature. I think I said this already but just being part of the art is what is important to me.

Stay tuned because right now I am working on another boob oiling video. It should be up tonight unless something bad happens.

And I know you can’t wait to give it to her! If you frequent this blog you probably frequent Samantha’s as well but just to give that added goose, I am blogging her post in order to remind you to voter for her this year. If I made the time to do it so can you! She’ll love you for it!

2007 Voluptuous Awards Nov 13 2007

Thanks, Samantha38G

I’m sitting next to the FedEx mailer that contains the posters I wanted to bring to the Horror Hound convention. I emailed Snapfish to see about getting my money back and they refunded the shipping. It’s just amazing how much money I end up spending in an effort to make more. Unfortunately, Horror Hound was not as successful as I had hoped. I have no regrets except maybe in spending money on the supplies to make the envelopes to sell the video in and the $12 each for the Voluptuous featuring me. I ended up selling the Voluptuous Magazines and some videos but I wish it had been more successful.

I did meet the Low Budget Pictures crew. Chris, Casey, Travis, Mike and Meredith were fantastic hosts and I felt instantly comfortable with them. They made me laugh harder than ever and I had no qualms about giving them the magazines, videos and photos for free. They were perfect and funny making me laugh so hard I peed myself. Watching American Gladiator late at night was probably the best time I have had in a very long time.

I am home now and overwhelmed at all I have to do. I think this has been coming for quite some time, slowly coming to a boil inside my head and on the way back from Indy it started to bubble rapidly. All these things I need to do in order to prepare for next year and the new site. I don’t have enough pictures or videos and the weather is getting me down. It’s hard to work when you are down.

I worked about two weeks ago, we couldn’t finish the scene. I don’t blame anyone, sometimes shit happens and this shoot just seemed to be doomed from the start. So there is 45 minutes of film and a bunch of stills that I asked for and have been told to wait on. I don’t want to wait I just want the footage. It would help me with my content. Begging and eventually fighting for pictures is not something I wanted to do when I started this. I’m not getting paid for it so at least I can sell it to my fans for 25 bucks a month.

For the first time I felt the weight of my choices and they were heavy. They do make me stronger but sometimes I just want to be lazy and put things off. This is exactly what I did this month. I’m not sure when that will end. That could be a problem. People tell me to take breaks all the time and when I do they end up taking too long. Coming back in is hard and I feel confused and overwhelmed. I’m not sure what to do first.

I have been editing pictures and have 200 left to go. When I am done I will have a playmate site at The Breast Files. This is a one of the pictures:

I also want to do some more videos. I’m ready to get back into the game I think. I also plan on putting more hours on the webcam. As I always say it is easiest if you want to chat with me to make an appointment. You can email me at alix(at)wecouldbenaked(dot)com.

I also have several shoots coming up in Miami and New York. When I shoot for LBP I will be staying at a ski resort. I used to love to ski. I hope I still can. Best of all I’m shooting with the Army guy on Friday. I can’t wait! I need to get fucked well. It will be great! I just hope that everything goes as planned.

So, if you want to talk to me online, make an appointment and buy my posters and magazines.
I’m trying to come up with my next video idea. Soon I should have a new one up. So stay tuned!

I started seriously masturbating on Thanksgiving. I was 18 and home from school. Drunk and tired I went to bed early but I couldn’t sleep. Cosmopolitan was featuring an article on masturbation and since I was reading it at the time I decided to take the article’s advice and play with my clitoris.

It felt good but not spectacular. I did get hornier and hornier the more I rubbed myself. My hands got tired but I kept going. Despite the physical toll the action took I still went faster and faster. I learned that my clit was like a pleasure button and when I pushed on it I got a electric surge of tingles up my spine. I pushed it harder and harder and noticed I got wetter and wetter the better it felt.

Occasionally, I would bring my fingers up to my face to smell them. They smelled sweet and not at all like fish. I never understood the fish parallel. My fingers smelled good so I tasted them and they were oddly salty. It tasted good. The act and scent made me hotter. I’ve always responded intensely to smells, it’s the one thing that triggers my memory to the point where I can’t use the same soaps again if I have a bad experience when I am using them. But the smell of my own funk has always turned me on.

Whoever my latest crush was on my mind. It might have been Christy Canyon, Keanu Reeves or Jason C from down the street. At the time I was obsessed with oral sex so they were probably going down on me or I on them. The facial expressions were what turned me on most so I would imagine that more than the pussies or cocks I was dreaming about.

Involuntary responses have always surprised me enough to evoke a strong sexual reaction. My head pushed back into my pillow and my toes curled even though I tried to remain relaxed and not do the things the article said I would do. I am rebellious in every aspect of my life. Doing this and not being in control of it pulled me over the edge and very close to coming. My whole body got hot and I shook a little. I thought I was going to come with the next stroke but I kept going and it just built up more and more. My pussy lips began to flutter and throb and my breathing got quicker. My legs tensed and then it felt as if my clit grew huge and waves of orgasm started in my cunt then spun out and through my whole body.

It surprised me that I was able to do that to myself. I had done it before with the shower massage and back massagers but never with my hands. I tried but I never had the determination. I just didn’t think it was possible but there it was. I was spent, full, tired and ready to go again.

Hey, I’m not only neglecting the blog, I have around 200 unanswered emails! I’ll catch up, meanwhile, I give you upside-down boobs!

Fall is a pretty time of year, so I got my camera out and too some pictures of myself lying with my shirt open on the grass.

I’m going to head to Indianapolis in a few hours. My posters didn’t come yet and I am hoping they will be here today. I paid a lot of money to get them here before I left and Fed Ex seems to have screwed up. My 8×10’s came yesterday. I will have videos, pictures, magazines and my breasts at the convention. If you are going you can find me at the Low Budget Pictures table.

This is exciting! I watched Carnage for the Destroyer last night and am very impressed with Chris Seaver who is owner of LBP. Sure it’s not a blockbuster movie but it’s on IMDB, you can rent it from Netflix and buy it on Amazon. That counts for so much.

Before I fell for writers I fell for film guys. I was in a nine year relationship with a film student who never finished school. He talked a good game and knew a lot about film but he never produced anything. The next guy who lasted 3 years was also into films but he wanted to write. We wrote one screenplay together and when that didn’t work out he gave up and went back to talking about writing. It was very frustrating.

Chris Seaver is making his films and selling them. He doesn’t make a killing and probably can’t afford to live off LBP but he is doing what he loves and that counts for everything.

Sure, I am not doing what I really wanted to do which was designing clothes. But aren’t you glad I decided to get naked instead?

Come see me at Horror Hound today and tomorrow!!!

I picked up two copies of the magazine at the gas station the other day. The attendant was impressed. Last night, I saw that I had a copy come in the mail from Score. Thank god it came in a wrapper. I like the pictures, I think I look good. They made me look a bit bigger than usual. I’m not saying I have a problem with my size but I normally look a bit leaner when I get photos done. There is another photo shoot and 2 boy/girl scenes left and I can’t wait to see them. Remember how one of the guys had a hard time getting it up? the photos in the January issue were taken the day before. That day I shot a scene with a beautiful man who played a computer repair man that I seduce into fucking my brains out. We fucked on the desk and I had bruises on my back to remind me that I didn’t even feel the corner cutting into me because he had such a nice cock! Ah, that guy was fun and I hope it shows in the finished product.

I also laughed at the copy they included on me. I said those things yes but I said a lot of other things too most of which would not have made what they printed sound like that. No wonder they think I am an idiot. I was very tired and nervous I suppose I could have thought out my answers better. But really, all that matters is the pictures and they are fantastic!

I will have some of the magazines with me this weekend at Horror Hound and will be autographing them so if you are going there is a chance I might have one left. But don’t count on it. Bring your own. I’ll also have these posters:

I will have those in 8×10′ sizes as well as 5×7′ for sale as well. I ordered them on Sunday and need to get them tomorrow so if I don’t then I can take orders. I did order them 2nd day so I’m crossing my fingers.

I will only be at Horror Hound for Friday and Saturday, Sunday I have family shit to do.

Saturday night I was invited to be an art model at the Tavern Club downtown for their annual Artists and Models party. I have never had my portrait professionally sketched and I got two: a charcoal sketch and a watercolor. I took them both home. The charcoal was good but the water color is amazing! It is unreal to have a portrait done by a skilled artist. To see how they interpret you. I was overwhelmed at how beautiful he saw me and transfered that vision onto the page. I am having a hard time seeing myself as that beautiful. This is the water color:

The crowd was not what I expected. I thought I would be surrounded by white, upper class, elitist snobs that pretended to appreciate art. Instead the president of the Club was Spanish and his wife was Cuban. I sat at his table and it was made up of mostly Latin party animals laughing and speaking with thick accents and taking pictures with the models. The men were definitely impressed with me and the other model. After all, we were adult models. I was with Heaven who is this gorgeous blond stripper. She blew me away with her black evening gown. She was prepared, I wasn’t. I wore a casual suede skirt and low-cut creme top while she wore a beaded floor length black dress. She brought with her a gorgeous man named Julian. He was also a stripper and had a body that looked as if it was chiseled out of stone.

I was the first to arrive and I was the artists model. Heaven and Julian posed for the guests to draw in a mock class set up after dinner. The purpose was really an excuse for naked models to be paraded in front of a bunch of drunk members…and not have their wives get mad at them. One guy must have taken 100 pictures of me! He just stared as I sat there for the painter. Another guest who was very charming, probably pretty drunk and wearing a kilt, asked if he could draw my pussy. I had my robe draped over it so I pulled it up, spread my legs and let him draw. Immediately every man in the club was watching me. The women on the other hand were talking about how disgusting I was. I’ really wasn’t insulted because most of these women were pretty ugly even in their prettiest dresses. They talked about me as if I wasn’t even alive right in front of me. Someone asked Heaven to bark and she did. I would have smacked him. The women at our dinner table were nice and they talked to me like a human being but the white women were awful! I really felt I was giving that right back to them by showing my shaved pussy and spreading it wide for their husbands. I never want to be antagonistic or confrontational with people who judge me, but when I get the opportunity to show that I am not someone to mess with I will take it. I’m too smart and have too much to offer to let that shit bother me but when I’m stuck like I was last night, I use what I have in order to keep my dignity. It may seem like a very weird way to dignify myself my exposing my vulva but thats what I have and I’m gonna use it.

I also got to take home the charcoal sketch. I love them both. I want to get painted more now. I can see why people do it and pay large amounts of money for it.

At 10am this morning I got a phone call from Samantha 38G. If you are a regular reader you might know we are friends and planning on doing some work together in the near future. I was planning on going out to Miami at the end of the month to shoot some scenes with her. What a wonderful debut lesbian scene for me with the alluring Samantha Anderson!

Sam started at the age of 30 at her biggest size. She has a very successful solo site that she owns completely and a few other sites that she has part ownership of. Her conversion rates and traffic volume is at the level of Score and Bang Brothers. This is amazing considering that solo sites rarely make money. But Samantha is an amazing woman and she has taken me under her wing. I am one lucky big-breasted girl!

Back to the reason for the call. I will not be shooting with her until after the holiday’s. We both sighed with relief. There is too much going on and making more would just drive us both bonkers. But I am signing with Naked.com another webcam site that is attached to Bang Brothers. It’s the beginning of this site and I get to syart with them when they are in their infancy. I will still be working for ImLive as well. Somehow I will make this work. I have a feeling that after the new year I will be able to get my own place which will mean I can work many more hours on the Webcam.

Samantha is from the south and has a cute southern accent. The first thing she twanged to me this morning was “Congratulations! You are on the cover of the January issue of Voluptuous Magazine!” I couldn’t understand her and had her repeat this. Her accent while sexy is sometimes hard to understand over the lines of crappy cell phone service. When I finally understood her I beamed “Really! Oh wow! It’s out already! Really! January! How…well…do you think it’s on the newsstands yet…oh my god! This is awesome! I can’t wait to blog it!”

Sam said that I should be able to download the magazine for around $10. I went to the Score site and searched for my name and I’m not there yet. It might take a while. Sam also says Score fans take a bit longer to react to new girls. But, she says since I’m all over the magazine–front cover (small pic), lots of pages inside and I got the whole back cover!–that I should catch on pretty quick and fans will google my name.

Some of you have written to me and told me that you subscribe to the magazine so I want to know if you have it already. If you do tell me what you think! I want to hear from you. This also means that the videos should be up soon!

This is cause for celebration!!!

This is me as a Faery by JAHeath. I’m posting it due to the magic of this day!

Upstairs we walked in on Kat getting ready. Kat is a six foot tall bottom who is new to the group and was going to talk about future videos with the director. She was dressed in a black latex miniskirt and matching vest, a little white t-shirt (most likely to cover up chest hair) and fishnet hose. She was also wearing some dangerously high heels that made mine look like penny loafers. She towered over me and she introduced herself to us. It always amazes me the demureness of these girls. They are so huge and should have so much confidence. Their height alone makes them beautiful. Their features are so striking that it makes them attractive: scary beautiful.

I know many girls like Kat and most act demure and insecure. It always perplexes me at first but I am too smart not to realize that this is the hardest thing in the world to them. They don’t think they know the first thing about being a woman. But the funny thing is, many of them know more than most women do. Being a lady isn’t something you are born with it is something you learn. It, unfortunately isn’t taught anymore.

Kat is part of a new aspect of Lakeview Entertainment (the production company that is behind all of this). What she represents is the growing popularity of men being told to be with another man by a beautiful woman. Because, as Cigarguy so eloquently put it, “who doesn’t like getting their cock sucked or wonder what sucking one is like. Having a hot bitch standing over you with a riding crop and permission to use it, pretty much releases a guy to do anything.”

After our brief chat with Kat, Lydia and I went back to our slave who we left tied to the ceiling. His back was very purple and we admired her work for a while. (Incidentally, the guy involved wouldn’t stop talking about how awesome the beating was that he received from Lydia…don’t think this is not begged for.)

We strapped him to this back breaking chair that would make it easier for me to fuck him. First I did a bit of face sitting, then breast smothering. Finally I mounted him, again facing Lydia. I bounced up and down on this guy looking at her and came again. Her tits jiggled with each thrust I gave him. She stared at me and I stared at her. And again we lost sight of our slave. He wasn’t going to cum with me on top of him. I was pissed so I sucked him off and spit it into his mouth. That’s what he gets for not staying hard for me!

Time for another smoke!

I was done for the day and got dressed. Lydia had work to do with Kat. Earlier I had offered to help but I was way to tired to do that at the end so I got dressed said good bye and went home. I went to bed as soon as I got home. It was 6pm and I slept until 8am Sunday morning. I could barely walk Sunday but it was worth it.

I will later post the last part of my S&M video recap. I’m very proud of myself for finishing the story. The last time I wrote about the first S&M session and got to busy to write about the second. Not that the second session was any less blogworthy, I just ended up getting too busy and details started to leave my memory. I could watch the videos and recap but I have a hard time watching those. I tend to have a hard time watching a lot of my videos. I can watch the train videos and my Naked Video but when I act I get embarrassed and think I’m not doing that good a job. I’m not a Dominatrix so I cringe when I see myself acting like one. Yet the last taping was much easier and I was able to play a character closer to myself. I usually like to bring myself into my work. Sex work is much more personal than any other kind of work and the more you bring yourself into the job the better it looks. It is also better for me as well. I may not have much experience with S&M and if I bring the little bit that I do into the job I can make it look like I am an expert and have years of experience. The most important thing is that I have a good time and enjoy myself. The purpose of my recaps are to let you know how I enjoy myself. I do not make this stuff up, yet I do assume what the others with me are feeling. Their reactions to my actions are real but what they are thinking are my fantasies.

Right now I’m working on galleries for my Playmate site on the Breast Files. I have been editing photos for days and it is never ending! Buzz took some shots of me last November. I had blond hair and a bad case of acne! So I’ve been going over each photo (over 1000) and using the healing tool on my zits.

I have always had acne. I thought that it would go away when I got older but it didn’t. In fact it didn’t even seem to lessen. I have just as much as I did when I was 16. Many people have adult acne and there are tons of products that can help. Presently I am using Proactive. I tried another more expensive product a few months ago. Both work but they don’t get rid of the acne completely they just clear it up enough to make me want to keep using it. Like cocaine, it never satisfies me totally but I want more. Ha!

I asked my doctor about my skin and he prescribed me some cream antibiotic. I really hope it works. I’m so sick of having break-outs right before a shoot. It is true that acne not only hurts your looks but it also causes depression. When I was younger I refused to go to school when I broke out. I wouldn’t want to get out of bed even!

Anyway, this is one of the pictures I have been working on. I like these shower photos, they are intimate and I like that they don’t look posed. Since I have spent so much time on them I have thought a lot about them. I should get back to it.

(cont…)

Mistress Lydia and I changed into our man beating outfits. We were finished with our foot slave and now it was time to commence the beating.

I wore a black brocade corset. This time it was not spandex and totally constricting. My breasts popped out like torpedoes. Underneath were again black stocking and garters with a leather pussy spreader. I have no idea what to call this thing except pussy spreader. The leather piece framed my smooth mound while two elastic bands came down and went on either side of my pussy lips and up into my ass. The elastic bands made my lips spread open when I moved. It was a genius design!

Lydia (I have graduated to dropping her title—it’s annoying to type)wore a tit-less latex bodysuit in black. She too wore black garters and stockings. Her pussy was covered.

We both wore torturous heels that would scare even the most daring stripper.

Our slave was hogtied to a cable attached to a track that ran up the wall and to the middle of the room on the ceiling. The cable came down from this mid point and was where he was chained. The track on the wall had a crank that when turned took up the cable and lifted the man toward the ceiling. When I was finished turning the crank, he was half suspended and his feet were about level with my breasts (without the heels it would have been my shoulders-he was pretty high up).

We circled him whipping him with straps, whips, paddles and canes. He moaned and whined. The more he whined the harder Lydia hit. I smothered him with my breasts and alternately made him suck my nipples till they were hard and pretty for the camera.

Lydia got the Violet Wand and I pushed his cock toward his ass and she zapped him over and over. His body twitched and wriggled. He whined and beads of sweat poured down his legs. She was getting over zealous with the wand so I pulled his cock away. I know they like it but I have a hard time believing they like it that much. The look in her eyes is arousing but not if they can’t see it. I wanted him to see her and tried to pick his head up to let him glimpse her but the restraints were too tight and I could fell his body pull. He misunderstood and clamped down on my breast. I decided it was time to let him down.

We tied his arms to the ceiling. We circled him again taking turns whipping him. It was fun because he liked it. I got a little hungry for his cock so I started to give him head. He isn’t allowed to cum so he gets whipped at the same time. I can tell he is trying to hold back. In my mouth he was as hard as a rock and the underside vein was pumping. I knew if I stopped he would regain control but I hate stopping when I have a rhythm. The director told me to stop and handed me a condom.

I slid the condom on turned around and shoved his cock into my cunt. I had to fuck him standing which was hard. Lydia was shoving a dildo into his ass and whipping him so he wasn’t moving for me. I strained hard against him then lost him. He was soft and I though my legs were going to fall off.

We decided to cancel the dildo and let Lydia just whip him. So I got fucked finally and came a few times but couldn’t see the other mistress so it wasn’t as intense. When we were done I fell to the floor and had to rest. I got another thumbs up from the director for an orgasm well done. I didn’t even notice that he switched from the video camera to the still camera.

Time again for another smoke break.