Once again, Gram Ponante has given me an encomium. This time he honors me for Halloween with the poetry of HP Lovecraft. Ponante’s reconnaissance found my reference in the Necronomicon too! I’m blushing even if he is filled with terror!

Artist JAHeath is responsible for the art work as well as my Succubus for Halloween.

Gram Ponante, I want to have your baby!

This is done by the incomparable JAHeath. Have a safe and scary Halloween everyone!

I’m just posting a picture tonight. Sorry no story. But, I will update you on traffic court for those of you who read this. If you remember my story about the accident there was a woman who was an asshole. She asked me something like “what were you thinking?” Well she was there in court, so I asked for a continuance. The only reason why a witness would show up to the court is to make sure I had to pay the fines. My insurance company paid for her car and three other cars to get fixed. There were no injuries so the woman was just being an asshole. the cop wasn’t even there! It would have been dismissed! So because of this..oh never mind.
Also, right before I went to court, I got a phone call from a company telling me I was the victim of identity theft.
Fuck this!
Enjoy the picture.

I’ve always thought I was a good driver. I wanted to be a race car driver, still do. Car Ballet is my favorite dance. Today I didn’t get into an accident. Driving along, I was mostly upset with the other drivers that don’t drive as fast as I want them to. I had to pee and wanted to get home as quickly as I could. I was about 2 minutes from my house, only two left turns to go. When I got into the first turning lane and I put my foot on the brake. The car slowed down but didn’t stop. It felt like I still had my foot on the accelerator. The engine revved as I put both feet on the brake. I slowed down enough to be able to not hit the car in front of me and swerve to the left into the lane of oncoming traffic. The light was red so no cars were coming. I applied the emergency brake and it didn’t help at all! It was really hard to keep my foot on the brake and it felt like the car was fighting me to stay moving! My whole body was shaking and I was panting like I just ran a marathon. Not sex! No panting after sex is a good feeling. This was the panting you have after running that scares you into vomiting!

Six cars were in front of me waiting to turn left but I cut in front of three and they let me go. The car squealed on the pavement as I made the turn. Then the road has a slight incline so even though I was almost standing on the brake peddle the car started to go faster. The next turn I had to make was about 200 feet from the previous one and I made it peeling into the side gravel at about 40 miles and hour.

I was finally on a residential street. The car was smoking from having the emergency brake on so I couldn’t see well. It was still moving pretty fast but had slowed a little from the turn. I threw the car in neutral and shut the ignition off. I put both feet on the brake and stopped the car. I was in the middle of the street and a few cars passed me without stopping. The car was smoking! I wasn’t being an asshole, they were! I was going to push the car off the road but I was only a block away from my house. After about 15 minutes I turned the car on and slowly drove it home.

I am completely without a car now. This is totally ridiculous! Why the fuck do I have such bad luck with cars. I was going to save up and buy a sports car but not now. No, I don’t think I want to get a car. If I get a car, a nice car, who knows what the fuck will happen?

Well on a lighter note, here is another naked cleaning picture. Has no story because the one I was going to write to accompany it got superseded by the car fiasco! I need better luck! I’m so sick of this!

If you follow my twitter updates you probably are wondering about my car problems. I’ll post about it later. I’m fine and frankly, I’m a bit sick of having problems with driving. I prefer to live in the city so I don’t have to drive. Since my parents have asked me to stay a little while to help them I am stuck having to drive all the time. It’s sucks but I want to help. It’s my way of trying to make up for being such an asshole when I was younger.

In celebration of Halloween AMC is playing some of the greatest horror movies of all time. Last night I watched TheFury. When I was younger I wanted to be psychic. I used to pray every night to god to make me psychic. It’s funny now but back then I took it very seriously. I wanted to have magic ability so badly and I spent weeks, months, years studying the phenomenon. Movies like TheFury provoked me into wanting to be psychic. I’m blushing while I write this hoping you will forgive my ridiculousness. But I still kinda want magical powers. I know its impossible but every now and then I think of how great it would be to read minds and see the future.

Years ago, my first serious boyfriend and I were very much into films. My boyfriend was taking film classes at Columbia and we spent weekends at the Fine Arts Theater and The Music Box watching independent films. One of the directors he was very impressed with was John Cassavetes. He rented A Woman Under The Influence. It was such a gritty, real movie about alcoholism and madness. I had a hard time watching it and when he first pushed play I was so excited that Columbo was in it. Unfortunately he wasn’t solving any murder mysteries in this film. No he had his wife committed. Gina Rowlands, Cassavetes’ wife, won an Oscar for her role as the lead.

Then I became obsessed with Rosemary’s Baby. Seeing John Cassavetes acting made him more real to me and I felt like there was something about him that I very much wanted to be part of or know more. He died in 1989 of cirrhosis of the liver which is kind of ironic. He played a comedic bad husband in Rosemary’s Baby and in The Fury he plays a very evil head of a secret government agency that kidnaps Robin Sandza (Andrew Stevens). The Fury, like Rosemary’s Baby, is a horror about weird psychic/demonic phenomenon.

Amy Irving plays Gillian a psychic teen who is discovered by the agency that Cassavetes runs. She makes people bleed. It’s pretty weird and scary. She can see Robin and is “rescued” from the institute by Robin’s father Pete Sandza (Kirk Douglas) and his girlfriend Hester (Carrie Snodgress) who works at the institute. Pete and Gillian try to save Robin who has turned int a monster and kills off his doctor/lover, Susan (Fiona Lewis) in a really awesome and bloody scene. She deserved it for not loving him enough to save him from being used by Cassavetes. He makes her ears and eyes bleed then elevates her and spins her around so that blood splatters the walls, floor and ceiling. Not sure how Robin stays so clean.

When Pete finally finds his son Robin, the kid is too far gone and tries to kill him. They both die after a particularity brutal gun fight killing off a bunch of security guards. It’s sad and Gillian is left with Cassavetes who tries to comfort her. Just when you think she falls for his charm, she kisses his eyes making them bleed and blinding him. As he flails around trying to find her she tells him to go to hell and makes him blow up. It’s a pretty cool scene. They decided to keep his head in tact so when you watch the slowmo of the exploding John Cassavetes you get to see his head fly through the air and get a pretty good look at the expression he had right as he blew.

Besides the awesome plot and gruesome effects, the cast was pretty all star. Daryl Hanna plays one of the girls at lunch with Gillian at school and is told by the queen bitch since she is so nervous she should go masturbate. Right next to the school bitch sits the gimp lady from ER, Laura Innes. She plays the head nurse or whatever that limps around and became a lesbian on ER. And Dennis Franz plays, what else, a cop. Oh and it takes place in Chicago. It is funny when the doctor tells Robin that she is going to take him to a quite place in the country, north of the city called Lincoln Park. I guess in 1979 Lincoln Park must have been the country, its amazing because now it’s very much part of the city.

So I very much recommend The Fury. It scared me and made me wat to be psychic again. Maybe tonight I can wish for it again!

Three conductors asked me today about the train videos. One asked if he gets royalties! He was the conductor who collected my money in the second masturbation video. I saw him on the platform on my way to the city this morning. The second conductor asked me if I was the girl on the internet. And the third was on the train and told me I was famous.

So there you have it! Those of you who think I’m going to get caught, I guess I did but I don’t think they want to kick me off the train. Just so you and they know, I don’t do anything if there are kids on the train. In the last video I was completely surprised by all the people who got on the train. Non of them were children and non could see anything.

I do however think this is the end of the train videos for a while. I will be watched a little more closely than usual and don’t want to have an audience. Although it may make it easier to film stuff in the future if I make nice with the conductors.

On a totally unrelated note, here is a picture from the other night’s photoshoot. Once again, I am cleaning naked!

I’m having issues. Right now I’m disappointed that I am not more consistent with this blog. My idea was to update it as often as possible but to make sure that each day it was updated around the same time. It’s not impossible but I seem to have a hard time keeping up with that rule. Yesterday I didn’t feel like blogging at all. So I didn’t. But I felt guilty and this morning I rushed to get this one out. And now it’s 4pm and I am still writing it! Some days I post a ton and others I don’t post at all.

Last week was so draining. Having my family here was fun but really tiring. They are all older, except my cousin. So when I am in the room I am asked to do things like being a servant. I hate it and acted like a child and spent most of my time trying to avoid having to do things like that. I don’t mind helping with big things like the set up of the wedding but when I want to join a conversation I can’t because everyone wants me to get them blankets and drinks. I spent all week running around taking care of everyone and picking up after everyone.

After all that, my parents are pissed at me again. My mother thinks I’m on drugs and my father just doesn’t talk to me anymore. I’m not sure what I did to my dad but it has been this way for a while and I wonder why my mother doesn’t notice. She just thinks I’m snorting lines in my room. She thinks because I don’t watch TV with them at night that I am hiding something.

After years of doing drugs and drinking, I suppose I deserve this. But let me tell you, if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn’t come clean with them. I would have started getting naked as soon as I lost the weight and made sure I never got financially fucked and had to move back home. I would have gotten sober without telling them I ever had a problem. In fact if I had the chance I wouldn’t have started drinking in the first place. But I don’t have that chance and I have to spend every day of my life paying for the fact that I did take that first drink.

Because I lost my job earlier this year and the video didn’t sell like I thought it would, and my landlord came on to me and freaked me out I moved home. You may remember this. So lately I’ve been staying with friends, traveling, and bouncing around. Last week my dad went into the emergency room and had to stay the night. I decided to stay at the house for longer periods of time so I can help out more. It’s only been a few days and I’m already itching to get out again. But I want to be completely out of debt before I get another place and with little money coming in on a regular basis, I’m struggling.

People think I make huge bucks. I don’t. I probably make a little less than I did working a full time job. The webcam chatting is so little money that I have little motivation to do it every day. I know you want to see me but believe me when I am only getting 30 to 50 cents a minute I would rather spend my time getting video jobs together than staring at dicks! That’s another thing! Dicks! Please, why is it assumed that I want to see a penis on the other end of the screen? Monday, I had two talking penis’. I hung up on one who kept trying to come back. It’s insulting. Show me your cock when I ask to see your cock!

There are wonderful, sweet guys that I talk to and women! I want to see them and enjoy spending time with them, but the amount of money that I get compared to what the company is getting is minute. Plus, that crazy bullshit a couple weeks ago where they shut me down. The email said that we weren’t allowed to talk to the guests outside of the chat room. Are they kidding?

So there you have it, my issues. I didn’t even get started on the issues of me not being happy with my weight! Damn! there is a bunch my therapist gets to hear this week! I’ll be back to normal soon, I promise.

Finally back to normal! My cousin left for the airport about an hour ago and I am on my way to work on the webcam. If you have been waiting for me, thank you for being patient. I should be on by 3:30pm central this afternoon. Come play with me I’m really horny today!

My new friend Jason made this for me. It’s so fucking cool and I’m going to print some out poster size and bring them to the HorrorHound Weekend. Yes I am going to be there with Low Budget Pictures! It is in Indianapolis on the weekend of the 16th. I will know more when it gets closer. I don’t think I can go every day of the fest. Maybe just Friday and Sunday. So if you want to meet me and have your pictures taken with me come to HorrorHound. I hope to see many of you there.

My cousin got married yesterday. It is weird to get married on a Wednesday but some of the family came up from FLA and they are leaving tomorrow. So it was the easiest day to have the wedding.

The night before I took her to Lover’s Lane and bought her some lingerie. I was drooling over the vibrators and really wanted to buy one. They cost $100 and I have a hard time spending that much on a vibrator. But they sure were nice and the vibrating was fast and powerful. I would probably stay in my bed for a week!

I’ve been out of the loop because of the family being here but I should get back to normal next week. I’ll be webcam chatting on ImLive and updating every day like usual. I’m preparing for my paysite which is coming soon and looks great. Also keep an eye out for my site at the Breast files. I will let you know when that is available and link to it on here as well.

Lots of stuff in the works that will help me make money and allow you to see more hardcore videos of me and my friends. Don’t worry I wont turn into a hardcore queen. I will stay funny and cute I’ll just be doing it a little more naked. I have a few ideas and will be revealing them in my newsletter. You can get the newsletter by subscribing or registering for the site. Also, the video that used to be available will be available on the site. It will be in a downloadable format.

I need to get back to my family. No sex for me this week!

The following is the first part of the erotic re-telling of my latest video. It starred me and James a new co-star that simply blew me away. I couldn’t help myself and had to write the whole experience out for you in an erotic story format. I hope you enjoy it half as much as I did. If you enjoy it a fraction of how much I enjoyed that day you should be satisfied for quite a while.

I was supposed to be at the James Hamilton Studios at 10am. I was late and worried that my co-star would be crunched for time. Mike, the photographer for James Hamilton wasn’t worried when I told him I was running late. Mike was confident that there wouldn’t be much of a problem since we are both usually good on the first take. I had not worked with James yet and Mike talked about how most of the girls enjoyed working with him. Mike has pretty high standards when it comes to talent and I figured James was good and had a large penis.

James was there when I got there and my first impression was that he is muscular, thin, attractive and young! Very young! Probably in his early 20’s. I usually like older men, my attraction is reserved for the older man who is smart and a tad overweight. James is in the army. I thought he was in the marines. I introduced myself and we shook hands smiling. His hand was warm and strong; I felt my first tingle with that handshake.

After I put my outfit on and loaded on makeup I went upstairs to the studio space to find Mike setting up his cameras, lights and various props. Jim was sitting on a chair waiting and talking with Mike.

We shot the solo stills and Jim watched me do my thing. Then it was time to do the blowjob and titty fuck stills. I took Jim’s shirt off and ran my hands over his chest. It was smooth and warm. I licked him to see if he tasted as good as he looked and smelled. He did, it was even better. I unbuckled his belt and reached down the front of his pants into his boxer shots and pulled out one of the most beautiful cocks I have seen in a long time. I was supposed to do some poses but I dove right in and wrapped my lips around it to taste it. I couldn’t wait to get it in my mouth. Mike reminded me to look at the camera and I did but refused to take Jim’s cock out of my mouth. I sucked and licked and sucked some more. I wanted to get him nice and hard so I could see him fully erect.

“OK, I think we’ve got enough of the blow job, Alix, lets do some titty fucking.” Mike wanted to get things moving and I didn’t want to take James’ dick out of my mouth. I reluctantly released him from my oral clutch and put him neatly in between my breasts. Even the largest cocks get lost in there. James was well over 10 inches and my double D’s still hid his sausage (giggle).

I looked up at him and he was watching me. He smiled and closed his eyes breathing in and letting out a little moan. It turned me on seeing him so aroused and I felt my vagina get wetter with each stroke his cock made in my boobie valley (giggle).

“Lets get some penetration shots now,” Mike’s voice seemed like it was a million miles away. At that point I had begun to suck the tip while it poked through my cleavage. I found a way to get that in my mouth even if it was only for a few seconds at a time. James pulled me up and sat me on the bed. I leaned back and tipped my pelvis up so my cunt was open and ready to receive his cock. My legs were spread and I looked up at him as he leaned into me and entered me. It was a surprise! His cock was big and I was tight. Usually, I am tight and when any man enters me there is a struggle to get it in and then a pop! when it does go in. The pop hurt a bit but it was followed by a gush of warm moisture and he rocked into me gently at first then faster and harder.

His breath on my neck gave me goose bumps and I lost all sight and hearing for a minute. All I could feel was his fullness pumping into me. Each thrust was full of pleasure. We were taking stills though and had to stop at Mikes command. I looked over at the camera, my eyes heavy with pleasure and my expression of ecstasy bore into the lens. Mike smiled and changed the chip in the camera. As soon as he turned his back James started pumping with urgency. “Doesn’t this feel good?” He asked. All I could do was moan in agreement. I hadn’t noticed but I was moaning loudly the whole time. My eyes watered from coming so much. I must have had four orgasms at that point and we hadn’t even begun to shoot video.

James pulled out to my dismay but quickly began to work on giving me head. I gushed and came with every flick of his tongue. Mike’s camera was clicking away but I couldn’t even concentrate on posing for him. I was too overwhelmed with the sex. It was amazing and better than most of the sex I’ve had without a camera!

I fell for Gram Ponante when I read his interview of the illustrious Fatty D. I was doing research on April Flores aka Fatty D and upon a google search I found the interview Gram did of April and Carlos my soon to be friends from LA. I fell in love with Gram’s writing as I do often with brilliant sex journalists. My favorites include Selwyn Harris (the EP), Hollis James, Violet Blue and Gram Ponante.

There is something needed to be a good porn blogger and Gram has it. Known as Gram the Man on his blog, he runs around LA talking to the biggest and the best in the industry. He turns the light on when an up and coming is in the dark and helps her shine. He did such a service for me yesterday, writing a post about my train adventures. He said he would watch me do anything and I blushed. What a compliment! Thank you Gram the Man

Hey there is another video of me up at BestFemDom.com. You can try this link or go to the site and enter it then scroll down. I’m wearing a full fishnet body suit with holes cut out of the chest for my boobs. Pretty Hot! Enjoy!

I’m too busy to write a full post. I figure I have to find a real good picture to appease you while I get back on track and thats when it came to me: the second train masturbation video! Not as good as the first yet a bit different. Initially this was a public flashing experimentation but the masturbation was more to see if I could enjoy my train ride more. I wasn’t sure the first video was good enough so I tried it again (lets not forget that I wanted to come again). Everything was fine until about 20 people loaded into the car after my first orgasm. Four girls sat about 10 feet away from me and has a view of everything I was doing. So I had to leave the vibrator in a little longer which gave me two more orgasms. I finally got it out and was safe from having to conceal coming for the rest of the ride. You can hear the girls talking and see people loading onto the train. Imagine my surprise!

All in all this is not as good as the first but it’s more of an exhibition than the first. I really had to keep a straight face because the girls that you can hear in the background near the end are sitting so close and seemed to be looking at me a lot. Even though I don’t look at them I could see them out of the corner of my eye and every time I did glance at them at least one was looking at me. Either way enjoy!
Oh and for all you who are paranoid that I will get caught…that’s half the fun!

I have two very exciting posts to write for you. One is my adventures with the military man. Wow! What amazing afternoon. If I didn’t know better I’d say I am in love. The first time I had an orgasm during sex was with an ex who knew how to get me off. It was a surprise because I thought I had been having them all along. I certainly always enjoyed sex and just thought vaginal orgasms weren’t as powerful. When he fucked me for the first time my whole body vibrated and glowed for hours afterward. It’s no wonder I stayed with him for so long even though I knew we weren’t meant to be together. I just wanted the sex with him all the time.

I hate to compare men and their sexual achievements with me but it’s hard not to when it’s two days after having sex with the army man and I still am glowing and my pussy throbs every time my mind goes back to Thursday afternoon. I’m not saying this guy was better than anyone I’ve ever had…well maybe I am. But it was the situation that made the moment. He was able to make me cum more times than I could count even when we stopped and started and had a cameraman directing us and watching. It was so hot and half the time I didn’t even know Mike (the cameraman) was there.

Jim was his name and I gush wetness every time I think about him. I am writing an erotic essay on the afternoon and will hopefully have it up by this weekend. He was not a marine but in the army and he was pretty damn perfect! Too bad he lives so far away. If he was closer I might go nuts and camp out on his front lawn. Ha ha! You know I’m kidding. I don’t fall in love that easily and there is no reason for me to go crazy. But like I said my whole cunt is happy as well as the rest of my body. I hope I can get him to come back and fuck me for my new site that will be coming soon.

The next post I’m writing is part two of the train masturbation series. I am having a real hard time uploading it to Medicine Films. I did it last night and only half of it uploaded. I need the whole thing to go and I’m confused as to why it was cut off. Any body want to help me? Email me at alix@wecouldbenaked.com. I would really like a copy of final cut pro and photoshop but don’t want to pay for them. Yeah call me a cheapo but I’m trying to save money so I can spend it on naked things for you guys to watch.

Stay tuned for those two awesome posts! Meanwhile stare at my ass, this is probably my favorite picture taken in LA by Carlos Batts one of the best photographers I’ve ever worked with.