I video-blogged last night and the video was too long for Medicine Films. Therefore, I was unable to get it up on the site. I have something called muvee autoProducer 6.0 and I need to learn how to make the video smaller so I can post it.

The video-blog answered some of the Belladonna herpes question that ST94 asked in the comments section. I will address my opinion when I get back from my meeting today.

I am really having a great time with my new computer and am so glad I finally got it.

I also wanted to thank you guys again for calling me beautiful, magnificent, genuine and more. I have no control over people judging me and saying nasty things. I know better about letting it bother me but when people outright lie about knowing me or say things that have such menacing and violent undertones, I can’t help but feel a bit threatened. It is more of a reflection on them than it is me but it never-the-less is scary. It’s why I have body guards and police friends on speed dial, not to mention hackers that can look up IP addresses and track people down. (I’m just a little paranoid.)

I put myself out there, (for free I might add to those who say all I want is money) and it takes a lot to do something like this. I enjoy all my readers and call a great many of you my friends. It is you all who make me feel good and write every day. I’m so glad you enjoy me as much as I enjoy you.

I love you all!

My boy girl scene is up on clips.com. You can check it out here.

I am now using my new computer and it is pretty amazing.

Thank you to those of you who stood up for me and said all those nice things on the before mentioned blog. I really appreciate it and am very impressed with my devoted and charming fans.

I am here to make you jerk-off. I have always said it and if you like what you see and read keep coming back. If you don’t, leave me alone and go find someplace that makes you happy. There is no sense in putting someone down, it only says that one who does it is a very lonely and unhappy person. The internet is full of people and things to see. Mine is not the only site to see a naked woman and I only want people here who want to be here.

I’m staring at the FedEx tracking system that says my computer is sitting at a FedEx location in Chicago. I’m not in Chicago but it traveled from Anchorage to Chicago overnight so what are the chances it may show up on my doorstep in the next 5 hours? I hope they are good chances cause I don’t want to wait until tomorrow! I could call and pick it up. See how little patience I have? Well I have been waiting for over a week.

It’s 5:30am. I went to bed yesterday at 6 or so. I had a headache! I haven’t had a headache in a long time. I feel better. Exhaustion gets to me sometimes. It’s also really hot outside.

I have been writing a lot and my ideas don’t normally chose very good times to come out. It was on the train that I thought up some good stuff and I continued it well into the night after the show. I didn’t get a lot of sleep and so therefore I was tired.

So much hate in the world. I don’t know anyone in Florida who interviewed me (unless it was the Score people and if it was you are an asshole! I’m supposed to answer that way!), nor do I know anyone who has no control over their sphincter. Why would I hang around someone who smells like shit? Thanks to all the others who do stand up for me. I’m definitely worth more than any of you haters have since you admitted as much. I will admit that it is hard to read that stuff. Luke ford has a preoccupation with my editor not me. Why he chose me to pick on is because he wants an in with McP.

I’m fat with mediocre looks and proud of it!

Last night my friend John took me to see the Bangles at the House of Blues. It was a magical night and I was in very good company. It was one of those times where you and your friend are just happy to see each other smile. I smiled. He smiled. The Bangles smiled.

The Bangles is a band that I really didn’t get too into when I was younger. I was very young when they came out in the early 80’s I was still listening to Disney and Sesame Street music then. But as I grew older and started to appreciate rock and roll (or I should say as I started to rebel and use music to define myself), I noticed the Bangles was a girl group that rocked. I tried to get into them. I liked their style and they were all really hot chicks! I wanted to be like them. I wanted to be in the band.

Yet, their music bored me. And I really only thought Suzanna Hoffs was pretty. I was jealous because many of my boyfriends couldn’t get enough of her. In fact neither could I. I had a major crush on the tiny singer as a teen. I didn’t think of it as a crush, I only tried to dress like her and make my hair like hers. But I often wondered if she was soft or smelled good. I wondered what her lips felt like, and when I did that I would blush and frantically suppress the naughtiness.

Seeing them last night brought back memories of me wishing I looked like Hoffs. She always had a great sense of style and I wanted to dress like her. But she is petite and flat-chested. I’m the opposite. Petite, yes in height, but not flat chested. I could not pull off the halter tops she made look so sexy. So while I openly tried to dress like her and tried a perm to get my hair like hers, I secretly wondered what it was like to be close to her. Very close.

I never paid attention to the other girls. Last night they made sure I didn’t make that mistake again. Vicky Peterson stole the show. She’s a firecracker and looks as good as she did in the 80’s. Debbie Peterson (are they sisters?) still held on to that hippy style that she seems to have channeled from Bette Middler’s Janice Joplin, only with a little more powder pink. They all look as good as the day the broke into the scene.

It was an awesome show and the crowd let them know it. A mixture of older fans and younger girly girls, the audience was energetic and happy. They danced and sang along providing a chorus throughout the theater.

A band called The Bridges opened. Three sisters, one brother and a cousin make up this harmonizing folk/pop group. The songs were catchy if a bit tired and boring. But they have potential and the fact that they were all beautiful will help them move up in the music world.

After the show I left John to go backstage. I had to catch my train and it was getting close. I walked along Wacker Drive and noticed the changes since I was downtown last (a mere month ago). The building I worked in last year is gone. I passed it by and noticed a big whole in the row of buildings along the Upper Wacker. What the Fuck!?! I used to work there and it’s now gone? Oh well, it was old and falling apart anyway. I was afraid to use the elevator at times and it stank of feet.

My train wasn’t too crowded. A drunk couple provided entertainment. The two conductors sat across the isle from each other and their walkie talkies beeped over and over. The female drunk was trying to sleep and was whining about the noise, begging whoever to turn off their beeper. When her question was unanswered the male drunk chimed in and both remarked that the owner of the annoying chirp must think they are pretty important. A beep, a drunk comment; a beep, a curse. Finally they got up and looked for the beeping person. The conductor stood up and said he was the “muther fucker” with the beep. It was required to stay on so he could talk to the engineer. Apologies and spit came from the man. The woman was already passed out in another car. I got off the train and was in bed by 2:5am.

Chicago is a fun town! I had a great night!

I haven’t received my new computer yet and I’m in such a bad mood about it. I have been pouting all day! I don’t know what is taking so long. I have no patience. I’m in therapy and we concentrate on my impatience for weeks at a time. It sucks. I need to do yoga or something.

I am really amazed at the response I have been getting from the Luke Ford post. Well now it’s posts because he posted about me again today. Lets hope I get more traffic from all of this. As for Luke Ford posting about me so much, maybe he has a crush on me. who knows?

Hey! Have you bought my video? You should. Do it now! And go to Alixgetsnaked.com and buy my clips. They aren’t that much and I’m sure they are worth it. I have to brag and say I’m a pretty good performer. I love fucking myself and I don’t see how this can’t be entertaining to watch. Plus I had a nice cock to suck on later. Loads of sound effects go along with it. I’m not afraid to make noise so go check me out and enjoy!

I’m so very excited about my these videos of me! Here is the trailer of me doing my solo. It’s pretty hardcore and the most I’ve ever put on here. Make sure you go to alixgetsnaked.com so you can get the whole thing!

Thanks to my HARD work earlier this summer there are some new video clips. I encourage you to watch my solo and really encourage you to watch my BJ scene! I had a nice big cock to work with and i loved every inch! Yummy!

I haven’t seen them yet so your feedback would be appreciated!

Luke Ford posted the interview. In fact he’s still working on it and the site is being updated as he works on it. I’m going to record all the interviews of me as well from now on. Being fresh off the interview I remember how it went. I remember my answers and what I wanted to convey. He didn’t want me to convey the same thing. Maybe he thinks I’m as stupid as he makes me out to be. He confused the order of the answers and left out questions. It sounds like I came out and said things, but he asked the questions, he omitted them too.

Oh bummer! I should have said no. But no use crying about it. I was going to comment on the post but I thought better of it. Believe me when I say that its all out of context and he left a huge amount out. He has a hard on for the EP. Maybe he is jealous that I got to suck off the incomparable Selwyn Harris. Who knows? I am thinking twice next time someone wants to interview me.

At least I’m getting job inquiries out of it. Cool! So all of you Luke Ford readers: this is me:

And my boobs:

Enjoy!

I added 2 galleries today. Spaceslut and Nudes-A-Poppin’. Check them out and let me know what you think

And coming soon….LACYBOOBIES!

I am being interviewed by Luke Ford today. He interviewed me almost a year ago and it didn’t go as well as I had hoped. I really didn’t know what he was about. I only knew that he had interviewed the EP and the EP liked him. It turned out that Luke Ford wasn’t exactly porn positive. In fact he seems to want to portray the porn industry in an less than flattering light. Fortunately for Luke, he doesn’t have to work too hard to do that.

Luke was nice to me on the phone. I enjoyed talking to him. He asked me a lot of questions about the EP and I really didn’t know I was being interviewed at that point. I was naive and stupid at the time. I had not been interviewed before and was used to being on the other end of the conversation. Plus, I don’t want to make people look bad or air their dirty laundry so I didn’t expect anyone to want to do that to me. It turned out less than flattering for me and the EP. Except for me stating that the EP had a 10 inch cock. That made him happy.

I realized after that interview just how much of an awesome human being the EP was. He wasn’t angry with me. He was amused and annoyed but not angry. I was prepared for him to scream and shout at me for being so stupid and talking too much. But he just laughed and said it was OK. Not many people in my life have accepted me for who I am and been able to shrug something like that off. It helped me realize that I do deserve something better and that I am very likable.

I grew up saying I was sorry all the time, a habit I am still desperately trying to break. I thought I was average all around: average looks, average student, average intelligence, average coolness etc. Never did I think that I was amazing, beautiful, intelligent or cool. I was always apologizing for getting in the way or making it difficult for other people to do, what I don’t know. I was taught not to be vain and never to get in the way. I suppose I was afraid of that my whole life.

Getting into the adult business, writing the blog, meeting and interviewing people has been an integral part in my overcoming that fear. I have always been outspoken about sex. I have always known a lot about sex and been able to express myself easily regarding sex and sexuality. Having the support from the EP was the nudge I needed to get out of that self destructive thinking that made me not feel good enough.

The Luke Ford interview I did in the past may have made me sound like an idiot and made the EP sound like a pervert, but it made me love him more. I also gained so much confidence from the incident and others like it that I was able to take more and more clothes off. I’m not ashamed. I’m very happy. I love what I do and I love myself. Here’s to the EP, Luke Ford and all the others who helped me get NAKED!

What did I tell you? The second day I’m back and I worked! This was a trade job. I got content and I posed for content. Easy and simple. I needed to do a shoot for the site and my portfolio and James Hamilton was more than happy to oblige. I really got lucky with this photographer. He’s really good! We took a huge amount of pictures. Enjoy them for the next few days.

Do my tits look smaller in fishnet?

I didn’t really want to come home. But at the same time I did. I missed my cat. I didn’t get what I wanted to get done in New York, done. What happened was, this trip that was supposed to be life changing and productive turned into a relaxation opportunity. I stayed with a friend and spent most of the time just being with my friend. We talked and watched movies, went shopping and to nice restaurants, went to Playland and the beach, and we walked on piers as I argued with American Airlines. I realized when I got there, after my first day of running around in a city made up of 1000 Michigan Avenues, that what I wanted was to be me for a few days. I put Alix Lakehurst on the shelf and bummed around as myself–the nobody from Illinois who enjoys reality TV and B-Movies. The girl who likes to be lazy and pontificate about fashion. It was good and I don’t think I wasted one minute.

I did however, miss out on meeting a lot of people. I got selfish but I needed to be selfish for a while. I’m very sorry to all of you who I missed out meeting up with in New York. I’ll be back, very soon. In fact probably in a month or two.

Hey everyone, I’m having a blast in New York! I will tell you all about it when I get back. Right now I’m tooooooo BUSY! But I have a new email. It’s very easy: alix@wecouldbenaked.com. I will not answer any email except ones sent to this address. So feel free to email me and let me know what you think of NAKED!

So I’m just about to leave for the airport. Words can not describe how excited I am to finally be going to New York. I was going to go earlier in my life. During and after college I planned on going to see if I could get a job with one of the big design houses. But men and fear kept me in Chicago. It was so hard to leave my boyfriend and risk making less money and going to a city that was three or four times as big as my own. Just when I learned how to get around in Chicago, I was going to leave it and learn another city. No I chickened out. I went to Hong Kong instead and thought about moving there. But the smell kept me here.

Now I am about to go for entirely different reasons. In a way it’s better that I am going now rather than earlier. I am much smarter and I have my shit together. I know what I want and I have a very good idea how to get it. Before I didn’t.

Ah shit my cab is here! sorry about the typos. Come see me at In The Flesh (see below links for info) tonight!

Wish me luck!

Wilfried, if we argue that a prostitute is not selling herself then we have to argue with a large part of the population who say that sex is giving yourself to someone. There are people that believe that sex is the ultimate act of love. I think the ultimate act of love is much more complicated than bumping and grinding, but I can see why it is considered that.

No, you are right, the product is sex and the prostitute has all her bodily parts. I will not argue that. Unfortunately, in the US it works a bit different than in Europe. Sex is sinful here. There are many zealots out there that only use it for procreation. You can’t argue with an American about prostitution in America verses prostitution in Europe. You guys have a much more liberal view than we do. I’m not saying either are right. Our puritanical views about sex being the devils activity is unfounded and dumb. Dumb, dumb, dumb! But I think your laissez-faire attitude about sex is also careless and sometimes cruel.

No matter where you are brought up Chicago, New York, Paris, China etc. there is a person there. It may seem ok to fuck as many people as you want and have orgies and love-ins but what about the person in the corner that loves you? The one that is only doing this because they want to make you happy, yet inside it’s killing them to see you with other people? No, we can’t control others or be responsible for their feelings but sometimes it hurts.

In the US I think many people think of sex as a personal thing not to be shared with everyone else because to them it is that personal. It’s special to them. They want to hold it high. I also think people in Europe do it too. Sex is tricky. I’m open about it because I like it, find it interesting and know a lot about it. But some people want to keep their sex to themselves. They want to have sex with one person for the rest of their lives and no one else. There is nothing wrong with that and I’m not about to take it away from them.

Those are the people who know me and blush when I talk about my job. They like me and think what I’m doing is great. They have very progressive view points about the world and people. But they want their sex to be THEIR sex. Do you think you want to argue with them and tell them that they are not giving a part of themselves to their significant other? To them they are. To me they are too.

If I was a prostitute I would be giving something away to my customer, my sex. As a porn actress I am giving my co-star my sex as well. In that respect there is no difference. But my point is that I am not selling my co-star the fantasy, I am selling it to the audience. I don’t have to touch them at all. They can do whatever they want with me in their own heads. I however, do not want to have to be in the same room as them.

The difference between pornography and prostitution to me has been explained in the previous blog. Pornography is legal, safer and more accepted in this country then prostitution. I go to work and feel safe and know that I am going to be treated with respect and that I’m not going to possibly get arrested. There are at least three people there when I go to work. I do not have to sell anything to them. I get paid and so do they. I produce a product that consumers can buy. I think that is very different than prostitution.

I also think I’m done with this subject for now. I have to answer Martin’s questions about Torture Porn. I love that subject too. In fact it was the subject of my workshop for It Came From Lake Michigan. I’m prepared for it.

tomorrow I leave for NYC! Yeah! I will be at In the Flesh tomorrow night and I encourage people to go there as well.